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keep
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be
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stay positive sara.

be kind inside out.
smile and dont lose hope. HE is there.

Setiap kali birthday
Setiap kali merdeka
Setiap kali hari malaysia
Setiap kali itu jugalah ia remuk semula.
Dan lebih parah bila ia bukan sahaja di hari yang dinyata sahaja.

I could sense that my time with my parents especially my mom is getting shorter and shorter.

I miss her and i would easily cry when i think of her. Sometimes when she sleeps, i gaze at her. Sometimes when she's standing in the kitchen, cutting the vegetables, i would sneak a look at her. Sometimes when she eats, i would sit and admire her face, and herself, enjoying simple dishes on plate. I noticed her tired body and decreasing energy. The woman who gv birth to me and raise me up and still care for me. I feel so bad for not helping her out much.

O Allah, how much time do i hv in this world?
I plea to You dear Lord..not to end mine nor her(and father) until i could repay their kindness, loves, cares and endless sacrifices to the point that they could feel comfort and grateful to You for having a daughter like me. And to the point that they could be one of the reasons for me to be able to get into Your jannah with them.

Salam.


MINDA vs HATI
LOGIK vs RASA

What are your 3 lowest points in life?

1. 12 dec 2014, friday, 10.30pm.
Was emotionally and physically exhausted. 

i lost words to describe it, but plenty of tears to shed. 

2. During my MA years.
Those sleepless nights, stress, long hour driving, nomad between sp-ipoh-tg malim, staying overnight at different hotels alone without my winglady, etc..
they spelt CHALLENGES, SWEAT AND TEARS.

3. When things happen.
And im well aware of its symptom; when my heart is less attached to HIM..

Ps. Being and doing good is easy when it is only for one day. But when consistency is involved, easy could become lazy and no longer breezy.
I could feel that im becoming more and more sinful.
And i hate it when i couldnt handle 'istiqomah'. T_T

9 nyawa?

2 situasi yang mungkin adalah terakhir tapi bersyukur masih ada saat berikutnya.. :

1. Lokasi: PHL ipoh. Lepas tgk jualan gudang the store. Aku cross jalan lepas toleh kiri kanan kiri.. dan tiba2 muncul lori laju di selekoh.
Lori berhenti mngejut betul2 sedepa dari aku.
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Memang betul mcm dalam drama. Klau org kene langgar, dia memang terpaku kat tengah jalan.. tak sempat lari or elak (dulu selalu cakap...awatlah mangsa tak mengelak..awatlah duk diam tgh jalan situ klo dh nmpk kereta..lol..). Tapi bila dah kena sendiri, baru faham maksud 'terpana'.

2. Lokasi: perth, australia.
Aku, dan 3 member memandu sendiri sepanjang berada di perth. Lesen didaftarkan atas nama member aku..dan aku sebagai navigator di sebelah driver. Masa tu malam kat traffic light simpang empat. Kami nak masuk kanan. Lampu traffic pun dh hijau. So, beloklah kami ke kanan dgn yakin dan tiba2 datang taxi dari arah hadapan kanan jalan laju.
Dua2 kereta brake mengejut. Jarak antara aku dan taxi hanyalah beberapa inci. Kalau kami berhenti dan taxi tu memecut, maka hentaman pertama adalah pada side aku.
Terkejut..tapi aku cuba bertenang. Itu baru malam pertama. Kalau aku panik, squad percutian akan turut terasa.
Peraturan lalu lintas di australia ialah utk mengutamakan kenderaan kanan. Meaning, kalau dua2 bahagian traffic lampu hijau, haruslah beri laluan pada kenderaan di kanan.

Peluang kedua untuk belajar dan selamat. Alhamdulillah.