cool

Salam.

u know, almost everywhere you go,
you would meet this cool and relax kinda person.
so yeah, i have this coolex friend, whom is my classmate.

well, i actually kinda admire this type of person.
im coolex too (nak jugak kan), but most of the time, i gotta say to myself, "ok, dont panic!".
so one good thing that i like bout coolex persons is that first, even in the most panic situation or stressful situation, they remain cool.
second, they have this relax face.
third, when they are not panicking or pressuring other people, you would also feel the relax aura.
it is just that....
I dislike if the laid-back attitude leads to ignorance.
oh man!
relax and cool is soooo hot.
but, if they are paired with total ignorance, it is a disaster.

(relax + cool) x kerja jalan = hot
(relax + cool) x ignorant = blur

lol
i was sometimes in the second equation.
but yeah, this is just an advice for myself.
not to panic or stress or blur so much.
and my brother, especially the 3rd one.
he's kinda a chillex or coolex person.
whenever i said, "aaa..too much work! *nagging* "
he would say, "rilex aa.. kerja sampai bila pun tak abes."
-_-

and yeah,
so tell me.
especially those who are not procrastinators.
how did you finish things earlier? or at least, not at the 11th hour?
you know, i tried to finish things earlier, but knowing the due date isnt tomorrow or being postponed,
i kinda postponing my work as well. huhu.
no bueno! i know..
but whom am i kidding right?
i cant tell lie to myself by trying to believe that the due date is tomorrow.
the same goes with clock.
some people alter the time.
like making it 10 minutes earlier than the actual time.
still, if i know that, even if i see 7.15am, i would refer it as 7.05am.
lol.
so yeah.
i think ive just need to take a baby step, in improving myself.
as long as im stepping forward, then, it is ok.
rather than standing still, waiting for a miracle to happen. 

 you know what baby? i think these sandals arent urs. 

u r a 4 sizer, that's 8! gimme back!

p/s: when something is too good to be true, it is usually true.

bella la

Salam.

ive bought heaps of pink hangers for my wardrobe.
cant wait to hang everything. so i could exactly know which should be dumped and
which colours i have least- so i could buy new ones.

----

i went to a workshop.
to repair those scratches and ketuk the kemik part on bella.
ok la. confession.
i was being careless, hit the divider and long story short,
long scratches and kemik at the bottom side of my car.
it wasnt that bad (if compared to kemik di pintu and so on).
but i still feel bad.
the mechanic said that it needed some tampal plaster or cement (what ever), ketuk and tembak (paint).
lol.
and costs around $100 plus.

and that's not all.
he gave me a free lecture pulak.
about stereotype lady drivers...
and about how girls could afford buying make ups but not caring much bout the beauty of their cars.
(memancing untuk upah polish).
and then comparing the colour of the car with human skin.
my car is white. so he said that white is a sensitive colour, like human's skin.
yang kulit gelap lagi tahan lasak dari kulit putih. putih senang nampak cela gitu...
so tell me again, why did i come?
-_-

---

so my first day of classes went ok, Alhamdulillah.
glad seeing those familiar faces again.
feeling good sitting in a lecture room while sneakily replying tweets, messages, etc.
listening to informative English words for hours after months of hibernating was refreshing. 
yes, first meeting, when there were not much stressful assignments yet, was always FUN.
hope it lasts. :D

---

i have this half-hearted and second thought moment bout applying for a transfer.
i have reasons that should support the part that i should apply.
but i also have feelings... im beginning to love the school, people and place, MORE.
and the fact that the likelihood of it being approved is like ONLY 5%,
it kinda smashes the hope and everything. im feeling like my students who always leave the essay part unattempted.
why bother trying when you know that it isnt gonna work?
but as i said to my students,
if we simply leave things untried, undecided, unanswered.... we gonna get NOTHING out of it.
(zero try, zero result)
but...if we at least TRY, we have the POSSIBILITY of getting things that we want,
though the chances are low. (well, it means, there's hope).
so practice what you've preached.
let HE decide on what's best for us! :)

p/s: people can wait. but not forever. forever has no limit.

Skip

Salam,

Getting fatter...
And i know i would gain so much weight with all these GCB,french fries, samurai, pepsi,cakes and so on...
Would be awesome to be able to eat without gaining soooo much weight.

And...i WANT to shop.
Im feeling lil bit sad n stress and tired and yess...all of those.

So right now..
Im feeling generous!
Wanna give my lemakS to those who need em..FOC.
And wanna spend money to buy clothes,pants and shoes.

p/s: i need energy booster!

nerbes

Salam.

im nervous..for my new sem's classes tomorrow.
-do i still remember how to get there? lol
-would my coursemates be as awesome as mehhhh?...haha

and whether i could find a place to overnight (most hotels are fully booked since last sunday and some dont really take early booking)

so yes, let's pray for the best! :)

p/s: packing lah weh!!! hehe.

inside out

Salam.

*Alhamdulillah, though i had Tuesday blues, it went ok :)*

 *******

Today was another beginning for a new week at school.
i wore a new baju kurung, with a new crowned (sulam atas kepala) tudung.

Like a usual morning, i went to the office, ladies (i had to tahan since 6am u know..the toilet at petrol station was so isocary-isolated n scary. i drove from ipoh btw), met a few teachers and went to the staff room, sat on my chair... 

till my neighbor suddenly looked at me admirably (well, that was my first thought) and weirdly (and that was her actual thought) asked me to bow. u know, to see the sulam design....

.....only to confirm that...i wore my tudung inside out! -_-
*clap clap*

i actually already went to the toilet earlier on and watched myself in the mirror, made a few morning flying kisses (lol..joke!) and still... no sign of me looking weird with my new tudung. *self-confidence should be praised*.
and mannnn, it took one complete morning tour at school for someone to actually tell me that. lol

and now, it made me think..

no wonder, Mr X (my colleague who would actually make a comment on almost everything that he sees-like a pimple on my cheek, brown eye-lines on my eyes, my eye shadow's colors, flowers on my shoes, that blue ribbon on my phone casing, etc). and it was kinda weird that he didn't say anything about my inside out tudung. I think he had his second thought on that coz he did look like wanting to say something at first and pretending (well, from his body language) that he forgot..lol.

still, I'm glad that my friend told me about it before i entered my morning class..or else, i would have to convince my Miss Jay wanna-be caring students that it was a new, high-fashion trend. as if they would buy it!

p/s: my legs...lenguh sangat...huhu

Monday mood bubu blues

Salam.

Hi

Just a quick updates on  last saturday.

-it was a school day, or i called it as Sathursday.
-We had a few things going on at the same day:

a) Merdeka raya celeb
-nyanyi2, some history telling moments, speech, quizes and so on.

b) Birthday celeb for teachers, staff and students.
 -none of the teachers were born on 31st Aug (but we got one student who was born on 31st!). the nearest was 26th. and I, with a few others who were born on August were also celebrated as the Merdeka peeps. lol
- ehem! untung kan lahir bulan Ogos? hehe

 

 

c) Bicara Ilmu (for form 3 students)
 -it was fun that i could actually meet the parents/guardians to 'bicara' about the kids.

 

 

d) Jamuan

So.... pretty much it wasnt Saddersday at all.
Quite fun Saturday actually.
I went back home (ipoh) though it was only for one day.
As usual, im following my heart and drove back to Ipoh.
Reached Ipoh at night.

**************

oh ya, btw...
this morning, as i reached SP (from ipoh) at around 7.10 am,
i got a heart rushing beginning of Monday.
Reached quarters at 715am to find out that i forgot to turn off the kitchen tap before i left for ipoh last Saturday (there was water shortage in SP before i left..so yes, i thought ive turned it off) -_-.
Reached school (quite late) to find out that im the on duty teacher. So the assembly went later than usual (but thanks to the other on-duty colleagues). -_-
Reached staff room to find out that another half of the English PMR post trial papers werent stapled. And surprisingly the papers were with me -_-.
looked at the watch and exam would start in 10 mins.
*the English team stapled papers like no-one biz. our hands were like busy octopuses*

and yes, ive told ya right,
these days, ive been clumsy and messy and more PMSer than usual.
gotta be more organize sista!
But Alhamdulillah, in the end, everything went ok.
Students kept on saying they missed me (bodek but it was a good one. lol).

p/s: if there's no evidence, there's no case. Prove it then people will believe it (well, if it is convincing enough).

ditched

Salam,

Sejak dua menjak neh aku asek kalut aje..kelams ok.
Dan asek memalukan diri je.. >_<

I just finished my kissm course.
Syukur.
But one thing that i wont forget bout my kissm is the part that i missed the bus!
I had a bad beginning and kinda funny ending for my bus trip to and fro ipoh-sg petani.

First day...
I was informed that we needed to gather at jpn ipoh at 9 to ride the bus to sg petani.
So at 8am, i went to lebuh cator..
Only to find cars but no buses.
Mann...i actually went to PPD kinta utara instead of JPN okess.
I really thought that the one in lebuh cator was JPN. *confidence should be praised.*
Looked at the watch.
And it was already 830am.
I didnt effing know where the heck is jpn ipoh. And only had 30 mins to reach there..

PANICCC..
but i kept calm..cewahh.
And reached there at 9am.
And the second bus wasnt even there yet..
Syukurr...

*****

Final day....
But that wasnt the end of my bus nightmare...
After the exam, we had around an hour to pack everything.
So i took my own sweet time to pack,bathe,etc etc.
And went downstairs at 1245.
I wanted to take pics, bid farewell and exchanged final stories with friends...
But that were only in my dreams!
I reached the lobby...
Only to find out that the 1pm bus just left..
JUST left.. T__T

 

                                                                             from google

aaaaa..
PANICCC
So i ran and asked mr zainal (the kind man in charge) bout the bus whereabouts..
And yesss...i was the ONLY person left at Seri Malaysia Hotel with a big fat baggage and a heavy bag pack to carry.
I felt like ...wanna scream... ToT

 from google

I was told that the bus will go to Park Avenue Hotel to pick up more teachers there.
And hence..
I rode a car with En Zabidi (another kind man).
He had to sent me there. lol
So yes. i was treated special.
Unlike the other teachers,
I went to the Park Avenue Hotel by car. (ko ada??) -__-
and...
it was the first experience ever that i was left by a bus...
Big time; during kissm.

 

  from google

In the car, i was thinking....
If i couldnt manage to catch the bus at Park Avenue Hotel,
I would (without malu ok), hitch a ride with the JPN people.
Yes, i know...at that moment, i carry a tag "would work for a ride"..

     from google

p/s: En Zainal said that this would be my rare experience in KISSM. Mann, it is! @_@

ku suka sinar suria...

Salam.

Lady: Ku suka sinar suria, 

Man: Aku nak tidur...

Lady: Ku suka kicau burung...

Man: aku nak riuh...

Tapi satu persamaan 

Antara ku dan kau..

Kapal Api White Coffee...

Lebih cream..Lebih kawww!

not to promote anything, 

just love the commercial.

it brings the differences together under one similarity. 

p/s: "Life is like a camera lens. Focus only on what’s important and you will capture it perfectly"-from twitter yo!.

bukan sesiapa pun

Salam.

ok..jangan emo..jangan emo..
you are just feeling hormonal, sara..
just hormones!

fuhh... 

p/s: sabar separuh dari iman. (berfikiran positif lah anda)

Augusto

Salam.

Hi peeps!
August just ended, leaving its trail.
So far, August smells roses! :)..
minus the torns (that's the part where i whined, being melancholy, moody and so on..lol)

so..what's so rosy and red and romantic and perfumic bout Auggie? (comelnyer panggil august auggie..lol)

Ramadhan  

i shamefully admit that i didnt manage to khatam Quran and perform Tarawikh fully in jamaah the whole Ramadhan. need to work more spiritually.
BUT, Alhamdulillah, i managed to resist a few urges. :)


Syawal (19th)

Brother and mother's birthday (12th & 20th)

 


My best friend's wedding (23rd)
*sorry, pic couldnt be disclosed*
but rest assured that the bride and groom are GORGEOUS!

My best friend gave birth to a healthy and cute baby boy (24th)
*sorry, pic couldnt be disclosed*
here's the trick- imagine a cute lil baby boy with red lips, fair skin and closed eyes..hehe

My best friend being more 'tante' with another 2 newly born august babies :)
*pics from Tante Gedep*


My own birthday (ehem..) (25th)









and the Merdeka Day! :) (31st)  





See, told ya that August (and august babes) are awesome! :p
I heart August, you should (better) too! :p 


p/s: Sometimes, we just need to shake our body hard so the heart would come to its conscience.

...of back to the past

Salam.

*this was written on 22nd Aug, published later than that :)

"The signs... Thank you ALLAH..."

#########

Today, i would declare it as the world's waiting day.
Because of miscommunication, so things didnt turn out as planned.
and i hate that (and also late notices)
and right now, im waiting for an important 3G call from my best buddies for an important live occasion.. :)
and here's the while waiting product :

*******

Hari raya was the day that my family and I visited our relatives at kampung; which was good coz i dont really know em well. suddenly i got many female second cousins and not to forget, feeling a lil bit veteran seeing babies and kids here and there. lol  

Meeting relatives was one thing. meeting friends was another.
i didnt really get the chance to visit many friends; except those who came to my house to beraya.
people came and being the only gorgeous gal in the house, ive gotta do the kitchen mitchen stuff.
but still, i didnt really cook the main dish, except satay (jela kann..huhu)

*******

Mom's birthday was on the second hari raya.
Ive gotta lie to her to make the bday surprise worked.
i felt bad, but after sessions of brainwashed from brothers,
i turned out to be the main culprit.
it was apparently mom's first bday surprise..(haih..anak2 bonda semua nehhh...)
and she was surprised! :)
we gave her a massage chair, something practical for mom.
I LOVE you MOM.. you are the number one for me :)

*******


Here are some raya pictures till the 3rd raya.
not many pics with fam though. banyak gambar aku coz obviously i love camera (@_@), and my brothers jenis layan je..hehe

*****

So... before the fireworks' pic takes place, lol... i would like to again, 

wish all of you...my friends, all muslims, a blessed EID MUBARAK! 

my sincerest apologies (Zahir and Batin) for my wrongdoings (i know, there were many..huhu)

 

SELAMAT HaRi RaYa, 

MAaF ZaHiR dan BaTiN :)

and yes, if you are that shy to visit someone(s), use this Hari Raya or 'datang beraya' reason to visit 'em!

it's the best time to visit or tunjuk muka, tayang kereta, baju raya, kasut raya and so on without feeling awkward :D

p/s: by this time, Ive 3G-ed with my girls. and it was heartwarming.. Makes me love all my sisters more, makes me appreciate LOVE more.

me, half-headed Gedep, tok kadi, saksi and of course, D's husband! :)

Sagat

Salam.

Bella cedera.
kemik dan calar.
sapa buat?
aku. k bye! :(

p/s: dah, this week tak balik rumahlah aku. Esok bawa jela hati yang sedih ke Dataran Merdeka bersama Bella gituuuu... T__T

a day past 25th

Salam.

Today, i did something that ive never done before.
...and it made me felt neither a hero nor a loser.

p/s: an early morning tomorrow. hope i could wake up fresh! :)

just so

Salam.

i want to write.. but maybe coz there are lotsa unimportant things to tell, so i gotta postpone it.
will write .. a longer post maybe :)

Eid Mubarak! :)

Salam.

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR dan BATIN"

 

p.s: ALLAH Maha Berkuasa.

Learn like a baby

Salam.

"Dear Lord, im thankful and grateful for my MOM, dad and understanding friends"

*******

yesterday was quite a day
and i learnt a lot from yesterday

1.  Mother would do anything, ANYTHING for her children. 

There are some things that we wouldnt and couldnt understand until we become one.

2. Sometimes, you need a plan B. 

but at times, the only plan B that you need is to RELAX.

3. A REAL friend understands you. 

You wouldnt have to ask, you just explain and he/she knows what to say, and what to offer. 

Plus, you wouldnt have to think twice for asking him/her a favor, 

coz you know, you would do the same for your friend. 

4. People (and myself, of course) should stop label-ling people. 

Like, an ustaz to be perfect, a lady to be gentle (not gentel as what my students wrote) or a man to be heroic. First, you only know the person from what uve seen. 

And uve seen little. too little that you couldnt or shouldnt judge people based on that. 

It's good to have positive perceptions on people but remember, people have flaws.

5. People love to talk. that they are NOT only talking with us, in front of us, but also behind us. 

no matter how close you are with someone, apparently, not close enough for one to shut his/her mouth from talking bad about you.  
"pay attention on how they talk about others for it may be the same way they talk about YOU 
when you’re not around" (Quote). 

6. For whatever thing that happens, there is always blessing in disguise. 

IF strong desires followed by earnest du'as and sincere actions, insya ALLAH, HE will ease everything. 

Ramadhan Kareem people.

p.s: the last phase. wow.

Alhamdulillah

Salam.

Every week,
I'm really looking forward to going back home to ipoh.
Break my fast with abah and mak,
and what i want to do the most is, HUG them.
(like seriously, i barely give nor receive any hug from people here..
well..you couldnt just randomly hug people ok..that would be W.E.I.R.D. )

****

lately,
my daily dialogue has always been like this:
MONDAY: "oh man, it is just monday. Friday is sooo far away *monday blues*.."
TUESDAY:  "it feels like monday today."
WEDNESDAY: "hmm, cant wait for Friday"
THURSDAY: "yeay! it's Friday tomorrow!"
FRIDAY: "Alhamdulillah, TGIF!"
SATURDAY: ~ME time~
SUNDAY: "isnt it Saturday today? what happens to my Saturday?"

and yes, im looking forward to the day that i could finally say,
"YEAYYYY!!! im going back to SP!"

when would that be? lol

*btw, this isnt a ranting. SP is awesome in its own way! cant deny that.
but i just miss my parents..especially in this Ramadhan...huhu*

****

Talking about sincerity.

nahh.. there's nothing to talk about..

it shouldnt really be discussed but proven and felt inside.

****

 i miss this, and us, sisters!

p/s: Holy month. Ramadhan it is. 

keluh kesah mak-mak

Salam.

"im grateful that i have the opportunity to break my fast with the whole family members 

last weekend :)"

*****

i was in the staffroom, doing my work when i heard the mak2 conversation..

"Jah punyaa anak darjah 6 pun dah naik jerawat dah..bila tanya.. cakap blom..tengok gaya macam dah, tapi tanya dah mimpi blom, blom katanya"

"btollah, kalau perempuan kita tau, dah keluar period, dah cukop umor..laki neh susah.. mana kita tau  die dah mimpi ke blom"

"tuhlah, Jah tanya sebab yela, tengok gaya mcam dah cukop umur, tapi suaranya takde lah ubah lagi. kenalah tau. suruh bapaknya tanya taknak. kita jugak..."

"hmm, apa2 pun nk kena mak jugakkk"...

LoL..

p/s: cant wait for my next weekend.

:)

Salam.

quick updates:

POTLUCK
-we had potluck for 3 weeks in a row. from female teachers for female teachers, of course.lol
and i brought this for the final theme; breakfast and dessert.

 this was simple, i know. and in case you wonder, this is bread jelly. 

my colleague made one before and i wanted to make it too! :D

CAT FIGHT
-this one fine day, a boy knocked on the door before entering the staffroom.
and he was wearing the big Malaysian flag on his head like a makcik wearing tudung.
and wearing a coat as well.
i was about to scold him for acting like that,
before the other boy came in with the same style, except his 'tudung' was yellow.
tell me about it, i had to hold my laugh.. they were punished..
for being involved in a 'cat fight'.

ABANG
i was teaching in this one class..
the notorious boy in the class called the other girl "indon!" after he was called as "gila" by her.
so they kept on calling each other that until i scolded both of em.
and i looked at the girl's face.
she was about to cry, i could see that. that name calling really made her sad.
and i could see that they boy was feeling guilty but still no letting his ego down.
so he kept on asking, "fara, fara marah ke?.." ..."fara marah ke..?".
and then he moved near her (after she moved away from him).
I was getting kinda annoyed.
so i told him, "Haris, stopped asking that question. just apologize to her".
and to my surprised, Haris apologized by saying,
"Fara, abang mintak maaf..." (say that like what uve heard in dramas).
motepp ko sebut abang? LoL..memang tak malu lah ini budak!

LiL BIRDY
-2 guys came to our staffroom for air-conditioner maintenance. the middle air-con was not functioning since last year. so when the pak cik opened it, we got the surprised of our life. a huge bundle of a bird nest was in the air-con. @__@ .
I wonder if the egg really hatched or was it cracked..*sigh

TUNANG
-My younger bro stayed with me for a few days at SP this week. My students saw us in the car. hence, the next day, they told (bukan tanya ok, bagitau...) me that they saw my fiance. -__-

p/s: it's friday tomorrow! Alhamdulillah :)

cendol pun sedap kan? hehe

Salam.


As the Snickers' advertisement proudly says,

"Anda lain macam bila lapar..."

true enough..

cranky, fatigue, and worse...

you feel like eating everything..

everything looks yummy, even Mamee instant noodles -_-

and you start to crave for many things (note: not only food).

so my current craving after cakes, homemade choc chips cookies, lasagne, macaroni cheese, etc...

is this, 

yes, PAVLOVA...

nanti aku buat! insya ALLAH.

p/s: next month apa pulak ko crave kannn.. >__<