Wednesday, September 13, 2017

hati tisu

Last few months, I went to my eldest bro's office.
Lepak kejap.
So he accompanied me to the office's cafe though he was fasting.. (ive told him that i wouldnt mind eating there alone but he insisted).
So while i was eating..we chatted.
Then he asked me sth.
My eyes were teary..
It was out of my control..i got melancholy in answering his question and my eyes reacted so fast with my emotion.
And...
I could see him a lil bit panicked..
..that he quickly changed the subject.
Hati tisu..
Macam ni lah..

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Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Depressed

Incomplete.
It is like everything has been put on pause for so long.
And all the plot is confusing.
Even the main character does not know what to do.
Should help been seeked or given?
Disappointed, heart-broken, confused and helpless.
How could plot be twisted; towards a happy ending?- Tell her.

Saturday, September 09, 2017

Bila sayang

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Bila sayang ...
Kau akan husnudzon dengan serta merta.

Biar aku bawa satu cerita..
Kisahnya kau sayang pada dia..
Tapi dia jarang tanya berita..
Mahu saja kau berprasangka..
"Oh..dia tak suka.."
Tapi kerna sayang pada dia..
Kau husnudzon,
"Mungkin dia punya banyak kerja."

Kisah kedua.
Kau sayang pada dia.
Tapi dia selalu marah kau tiap masa.
Kalau bukan kerna sayang dia,
Mesti kau anggap dia baran ya.
Tapi kerna kau sayang pada dia,
"oh dia marah kerna sayang", kau pujuk hati berkata-kata.

Kisah kedua.
Kau sayang pada dia.
Tapi masa dan ruang tiada.
Dia jenis cool.
Kau pula jenis cemburu dalam cool.
Tapi kerna sayang pada dia,
Kau husnudzon.
"Jauh di mata, dekat di hati".
Itu yang kau bilang setiap hari,
Itu yang kau doa tiap kali.

Kisah ketiga.
Kau sayang pada dia.
Tapi sikap kau dan dia tiada yang sama.

Dia redah saja,
kau skema pula.

Dia suka yang meriah dan ceria,
Kau pemalu dan perlu masa untuk huhahuha.

Dia baik berhemah dalam bicara,
Kau pula direct yang kadang terlebih emosi dari isi.

Dia menilai dari mata,
Kau pula perlu lihat dan dengar untuk 'rasa'.

Dia simpan perasaan segala,
Dan kau pula walau dalam hati ada taman, bibir masih terkunci diam seribu kata.

Mahu saja kau menangis berendam air mata.
Memikirkan kenapa harus banyak yang beda?
Tapi kerna sayang pada dia,
Kau husnudzon..
Kata kau dalam hati,
"walau beda banyak perkara..
Aku mau fahami dan rai itu semua"..

Benarkan aku kata?...
Kalau dah sayang..kau akan husnudzon.
Kau akan cari walau 1 sebab untuk terus sayang.
Dan lenyapkan 1000 sebab untuk dia hilang.

Itu kalau ada SAYANG.
kalau tiada sayang... usah satu sebab,
Satu titik sebab untuk husnudzon pun sukar dicari.

Tapi kalian..
Yang lebih indah itu bila kita husnudzon pada DIA.
Allah kan Maha Baik.
Dia jadikan setiap sesuatu dengan hikmah.
Segala persamaan dan perbezaan,
Kelebihan dan kekurangan,
Untuk kita sama melengkapi.
Sayang manusia kerna DIA.
Baik buruk dia dan diri,
kita sama harmonikan kerna DIA.

Suara ini nasihat buat diri.
Yang selalu terlupa dalam menghargai.

Fear not?


You asked what s my biggest fear?

It s not the deep ocean nor the total darkness that scare me the most.

It s losing someone, knowing that i didnt and couldnt do much that scares me the most.

And u hv no idea how much it affects me, how many tissues hv been soaked, dissolved in tears, how much strength and trust ive tried to gather back.

Those take time. And prayers. And loves.
Heaps of em.

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Monday, August 14, 2017

Empty
.
What has happened?
...been happening?

😐

Friday, June 23, 2017

"To all those broken or hopeless, I have learned this: Be grateful for every single person who was part of your story. The ones that hurt you. The ones that helped you. The ones that came, and the ones that left. They all taught you. Don’t think for a moment that any of it was random. There are no oversights with God. Only perfectly crafted chapters in each unique journey."

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Pinjam bahu

We do neither;
Ditching people when we r happy.
Coming to people only when we need em.

Be there for both moments. eventhough people dont ask us to do so.
Even when they look so tough, smiling as though nothing is wrong; everything is fine.

Be the punchbag and the pillow.
The shoulders and the ears.
Not the hello once in a year.
Not the goodbye when all is good on our side.


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