Saturday, June 06, 2015
Friday, June 05, 2015
BBW
Went to the mines for book shopping at BBW. #030615 #wednesday.
My last BBW shopping was on december 2013.
When i was at seri kembangan,
My mind was else where.
All d driving and getting lost...
All d walking and carrying books..
Stepping up the stairs...
The indoor 'stream',
McDonalds,
Sections of books at BBW,
the crowd...
Every single detail...
My eyes started to get teary.
I needed distraction.
Though it felt right, ive gotta admit that i kinda came to the wrong place.
#rbtl
Sunday, May 31, 2015
Monday, May 25, 2015
Sunday, May 17, 2015
The world is round
One of my dreams is to travel the world.
I want to have this big globe and world map in my room, on my table..so i could see the world, mark the countries that ive been to and dream more of going to places.
Monday, May 11, 2015
Sebel
Dihukum dengan kesenyapan dunia,
Tertipu dengan kedaifan rasa.
Mana pergi hati yang kononnya mapan?
Monday, May 04, 2015
Tapi
Satu hal yang kau tak boleh paksa..
Perihal hati.
Perlu masa.
Perlu usaha.
Perlu doa.
Banyak banyak doa
Saturday, April 18, 2015
Hati
Kalau dalam hati kau masih sedih kerna manusia,
Masih gusar kerna khuatir akan persepsi insan,
Di mana kau letakkan yang Maha Kuasa sebenarnya?
suka aku dengar bicara mengenainya.
Kerna semua pun tahu,
Sifat hati yang sering berubah-ubah.
Hari ini mungkin bilang ya.
Esok belum tentu masih ya.
Puncanya dari apa wahai sang kerdil?
Setitis demi setitis tewas.
Turun dari mata ke pipi,
Curahan mutiara jernih itu,
detiknya dari sekeping hati yang hitam.
Hanya dengan mengingati Allah,
hati akan menjadi tenang.
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Degup
Kawan aku.
Sering berkongsi kisah cintanya.
Bersama yang dahulu kekasih, kini isteri beranak lima.
Katanya,
Lelaki punya degup.
Serius aku ketawa.
Degup??
Lalu dia sambung..
"Serius ni wan sarah"...
Ok lah...
Explain...
Katanyaaaa...
Untuk jatuh suka dengan serius,
Harus ada rasa "degup" itu.
Itu kata dia.
Degup.
Dalam hati, aku terfikir...
Sudahnya... kalau ada yg berdegup 2,3,4 kali...
Pada insan yang berbeza
Bagaimana?
Ah.. terpacul pula soalan tadi pada dia.
"Sebab itulah lelaki ada yang kawen lebih..."
*senyap*
"Kak Susan...tengok cg Edward ni ha..macam ada niat nak bagi akak payung emas je ni..."
Pasangan ideal ini mmg dah biasa dgn gurauan poligami si suami.
Dan aku...sambung makan dengan tenang. Hahah.
********
#namarekaansemata
Thursday, April 09, 2015
I got a friend whom always know how to start, what to say and could always put up with me; no matter what i say or how mad i could be.
And a good counsellor too.
Someone whom i could say, "hmm i feel sad.. Can u please say or share sth comforting.."
Then puff! All sorts of comforting ayat, words, jokes and motivations were there in less than a minute.
If she was a guy, I couldve fallen for him.
Wednesday, April 08, 2015
This one kakak.
She is pretty..a well-experienced teacher and a happy-go-lucky kinda person..senyum sokmo.
And cantik.
Yeah..i said pretty twice coz she is.
She is also quite known for her busy life (earning more and more money is one of the things she likes to do; as she said so).
So we asked her about her part-time job at this one private institution. She said she had quit.
And we asked why coz as i said, she loves the money.
"U know what, ...when i was younger, i love to chase money.. i want to earn more and more money. But after quite stms, it becomes tiring. And once uve experienced the death of a fam member, u will realize that u need to spend more time with ur family. I worked at xxxx every friday and returned home at night. The next day, i was too tired already. And my family demanded my time during weekend. So i quitted."
It makes me think.
What do i really want in life?
In my 20s..in my 30s and in my 40s....so on...(if Allah permits me to have a longer life)..
More money?
Higher academic qualification?
More kids? (if im blessed with a marriage and children)
Bigger house and luxurious car?
I want a blessed life.
Blessed with the love of Allah.
Thursday, April 02, 2015
Soberness
Losing things that are near to your heart is indeed, devastating.
It leaves a deep mark,
a mark that only you and HE knows.
The heart is still beating,
Tears are still rolling,
Mind is still wondering.
True.
The heart should only be filled with the remembrance of the Most Gracious,
as only HIS love lasts forever.
p/s: months and 'soberness'.
Jendela salju
Jendela.
Betapa mahu kau ke sana.
Ke arah mana mata kau capai.
Tapi sayang.
Tertutup rapat, terkunci rapi.
Tiada mampu walau satu hembusan, walau satu bingkisan untuk masuk.
Hanya mampu intip dalam kelam,
...di celahan pemisah luar dan dalam.
🗻💐☕🌁 #010415 #wednesday #gststartstoday #ofapril14
Tuesday, March 03, 2015
Thursday, February 19, 2015
bro-sis code
At times, they would escort/ drive me to SP at dawn (at 5.45 am), though they have just arrived from KL the night before; simply coz they are concerned that i would be driving alone/sleepy early at dawn.
and other times, we would keluar makan, movie, shopping blabla.
padahal buat sorang2 pun boleh. but when bros are there, we would do that together.
my first bro, he is the most protective.. and strict.
tambah2 when he's married and has a child. lagiiii lah protective and kebapaan.
he is the one who always asked and called me just to say 'hi' or ask bout my days etc.
there was this one time, i was sick and he took care of me. He came to my college late at night just to pass me Vicks and some meds coz i was coughing badly. Many times, he took me to the clinics and made sure i was ok (with the bless of ALLAH, of course).
he has that 'eldest child' charisma and a decision maker.
my second bro, ...i like the way he gives advices/ opinions. it is always lengthy and of course, useful. whenever im in need of opinions or suggestions, he is always there to help (until everything is solved!). For me, he is a sensible person. He also layan my narcissism by taking my photos..hehe.
and my third bro, he is a 'people' person.
He knows and has met most of my BFFs.
he is the most manja and the one i could mengada lebih.
I always ask him and his wife to go out etc.
He holds my hand- walaupun aku dh besar (and his wife's hand of course), when we crossed the road/ at crowded places.
He makes sure i eat early as to avoid tummy upset.
He holds my heavy handbag when i need to choose / shop for sth.
he still lies his head on my lap, stms asks me to picit kepala, kaki and lepak in my room (bilik aku sejuk) though he's married.
oh...at times, he bullies me too. u know, requesting this n that (mostly food).
and of course my lil bro.
hmm..ahaha. he is of course younger than me. and im closer to him actually.
i talk and share with him though he doesnt really give elaborate responses. lol.
he is a really good listener and a trustworthy secret keeper.
i love hugging him.. at random times.
i hold his arms when walking at malls, etc for no reason. ahahaha.
love teasing him esp when he sleeps and sits alone thinking of things, or even when he eats.
I drink his water just a sec after he finishes pouring it into the glass,..simply because!.
i dont know,... i just love to annoy him! :D
but yeah,....
it is not always rainbows with bros.
we fought and bickered too.
we have some 'terasa hati' moments too.
they were times when i cried coz well obviously... i hati lembik cam kanji..huhu.
BUT, like other siblings,
we got over that..
i also appreciate all their countless sacrifices and concerns on me..
and for all the good and bad, i would NOT trade bros for anything. :)
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
Tolong ingatkan aku
Orang yang mudah lalai seperti aku..
Memang perlu kepada peringatan berulang kali tanpa jemu..
Peringatan dan nasihat berhikmah, agar aku mampu berubah,
dalam istiqamah.
In sya Allah.
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
Bolehkah kau hadapi
Salam
Kau tak tahu betapa jantung berdegup laju,
Fikiran melayang selalu,
Bila fikir perkara yang aku sendiri tak tahu,
...sama ada aku mampu.
Semahunya diri mahu jadi yang terbaik.
Tapi diri lebih kenali hati.
Banyak hitam dari putih suci.
Lalu mengundang pelbagai persoalan dalam diri.
Sudah ready,
untuk hadapi semua nanti?
Saturday, January 31, 2015
Cinta ke syurga
Kalau cinta,
Sama-sama banyakkan doa.
Kalau benar cinta,
Sama-sama bawa ke syurga.
Barulah sama-sama elak derita,
Sama-sama kecap bahagia.
Ps: peringatan untuk diri.
Friday, January 30, 2015
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
baiki diri
Bila dapat kegembiraan, kita bersyukur.
tapi jarang kita bertanya "kenapa aku?".
Maka bila ditimpa kesukaran,
bersyukurlah kerana kita terpilih untuk ditarbiyah,
dan jangan persoal "kenapa aku?".
Status kita sebagai hamba NYA, buatkan kita lebih dari layak untuk diuji.
Dan untungnya kita, hamba hina tapi Tuhan sayang...
Bila diuji NYA,
DIA janjikan kita hanya diuji dengan ujian yang kita mampu hadapi.
DIA janjikan disetiap kesukaran ada jalan keluar,
DIA janjikan sesuatu yang lebih baik,
Kadang kita mungkin tak faham dan tak punya kebijaksanaan untuk melihat hikmah.
Tapi semestinya ujian dari DIA membuatkan kita lebih berfikir,
lebih bermuhasabah,
lebih banyak tangis, rayu dan berharap pada DIA.
ALLAH, daku sayang pada MU.
Ampuni daku, ampuni dia, ampuni kami semua.
p/s: Mohon masa diputarkan adalah mustahil.
Yang termampu ialah untuk mengubah diri sendiri.
Baiki diri dan bersihkan hati.