You know, it was like in a drama,
when a mother or a wife was praying and then reciting some zikr using the tasbeh and then.... pufff!
That suspense or sad background music came in...
Tasbeh terputus
The beads were everywhere
And uve got that bad feelings.

Huhuhu...
Rasa nak nangis pulak. Ala2 dramatic..
I need a new tasbeh. That was a tasbeh given by my friend last 2 years i think.  And now..dah terputus 😣

And that sejadah/ prayer mat was given by my ex principal whom ive just had a chance of working with him for 3 months. He gave a sejadah to every staff on his retirement day. That was in 2011.
And im still using it til now.

Kiroman katibin

#nw malaikat hafazah #cintailmudanfalsafah

Ive first heard the term 'kiroman katibin' from my friend, I, in dec 2013.
He said that before we sleep, we could make niat, and ask kiroman katibin to wake us up at a certain time (with Allah's will).

Kiroman katibin are the angels on our right and left shoulders who keep tracks and records of our good deeds and bad ones..

So that night, i made a niat to wake up at 6am. In that niat, i mentioned kiroman katibin, and i mentioned with the wills of ALLAH too.. and Alhamdulillah, the next morning, i woke up around 6am..to be exact, 5.55am, without alarm clock.

Tq I for sharing the 'ilm with me. Uve got ur 'share' for akhirah, in sya Allah...

************

And ive also learnt that if we recite quranic verses/surah and some zikir before we sleep, and also make a strong, sincere and specific niat to wake up early (for example; O Allah, please wake me up at the last phase of the night so i could submit myself to YOU..), in sya Allah, HE would wake us up early.

p/s: it s my birthday today. Alhamdulillah.. ☺😊 #tuesday

Tegur kerana sayang

22082015
Saturday

Met with a friendly makcik at An Nur mesjd. She was not from the neighbourhood though.

We had a chat here and there in between the ceramah. She was actually on her way back home to silibin after teaching fardhu ain, etc at Seri Kenangan (an old folks home). But it was raining heavily before Maghrib and the road that she normally used was flooded. So she had to use an alternative route, which had brought her to An-Nur mesjid. She repeatitively mentioned how grateful she was for having the opportunity to solat there and listened to the talk by our guest speaker, Dr Azlan on mukmin sejati (Surah al-Mu'minun; 1-11).. ☺

After the talk, we performed Isyak prayer side by side. And soon after we finished the prayer with du'a, etc,.. she tegur me in a humble and kind way (like a mother to her daughter); she said that when performing congregational prayers (jamaah prayers), makmum could not prolong the final sujood any longer than the imam.

In my very limited knowledge and 'ilm, especially in fiqh (please correct me if im wrong) ; 
I've learnt from ustaz(ah) that in jamaah prayers, makmum could prolong the final sujood as long as the imam has not yet recited the syahadah OR maximum, the solawat onto Nabi Muhammad SAW in tahiyyat akhir (meaning, you can prolong your sujood BUT not for TOO long). The best is to prolong your sujood when you perform prayers individually..

But i didnt say anything back to her bout that. I smiled and sincerely thanking her for telling me that. Having a makcik whom ive just met for perhaps an hour, and had actually 'corrected' me on that, was something im grateful for. That simply shows she cares about me. Alhamdulillah..

Makcik S, hope we could meet again,  In sya Allah.. Thank you for your kindness and may Allah bless you, and all of us 😊

For further explanation on 'could makmum prolong their sujood?'; click the link below...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCx7enUWfb0&sns=em

Dalam banyak kisah,
Memang kita yang bersalah
Terlalu kaku dan malu untuk mengolah.

Tapi tiap salah yang disambut diam,
dan tiap guris yang dipendam,
Mana mungkin minda faham,
Mana mampu hati ini hadam.

Walau itu yang kadang kita lakukan,
Bicara awal kadang disambut kata
Walau sepatah tapi bisa berbunga jiwa.

Kata nasihat berhikmah itu penguat.
Penguat buat apa yang telah tertambat.

Cinta

Siapa yang pernah kesat air mata kau?

Sendiri

dan

Ibu.

Siapa yang mampu hilangkan kesedihan kau?

ALLAH SWT.

Bukan kau.
Bukan ibu.
Bukan mereka.

Nasihat yang berhikmah. Yang padanya tiada marah dan tiada kata pelemah.

Mendengar pada pengalaman mereka.
Yang padanya ada kejujuran rasa dan keikhlasan cerita.

Nasihat mereka masih bergema.
"Sudah tarafnya kita seorang hamba, selayaknya diuji oleh DIA.."

Sel dalam otak berhubung segera dengan janji TUHAN (al-Baqarah; 286)... bahawa DIA tidak akan uji kita dengan ujian yang tidak mampu kita hadapi.

Bila kali terakhir kita bersyukur kerana diuji?

Soal aku kepada aku..

Redha

R.E.D.H.A...

5 huruf,1 perkataan.
Tapi sejauh mana keikhlasan, perlaksanaan dan penerimaan?

Adakah bila bersedih,
terkenang dan bergenang, menunjukkan seseorang itu tidak redha?

Ya Rabb,
Kurniakan kami hati yang redha atas segala ketentuan-MU.
Sesungguhnya Engkau lah yang Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Menentukan..

Hakikat

Aku sering membayangkan bahawa hati adalah satu ruang kosong yang perlu diisi, 

samada dengan air atau minyak, 

atau kebiasaannya, manusia hina seperti aku, ada kedua-duanya. 

...yang mana keduanya tidak bercampur tapi masing2 cuba mengambil ruang yang ada.

jika hati terisi lebih dengan air, maka ruangan untuk minyak akan berkurang. 

jika terisi lebih dengan minyak, maka ruangan air menjadi sedikit. 

air diibaratkan sebagai sesuatu yang menyihatkan

.. memberi tenaga, punya unsur membersih. 

jika ditambah usaha, mampu menyingkirkan lebihan minyak, 

lantas memperoleh ruangan lebih di dalam hati.

minyak pula, 

sedikit sebanyak perlu..

 tapi jika terlalu banyak, memberi mudarat.. 

dan jika dibiar lama, akan menjadi lemak, membawa penyakit dan menyempitkan ruangan hati.

Setiap kali hati terisi lebih dengan dunia (minyak),

 maka ruangan untuk akhirat (air) akan berkurang.

setiap kali kurang siraman air pada hati, 

setiap kali itulah, minyak mengambil ruangan itu. 

dan jika berterusan, 

minyak bertukar jadi lemak... 

dan akhirnya menyumbat hati sendiri hingga sukar dimasuki air.

aku takut.

takut ruangan untuk air makin berkurang kerna ralitnya hati dimasuki minyak..

...sedangkan aku tahu pentingnya air untuk menyuburkan hati.

Auggie

Hi AUGUST!
I love you so much last year.
I love how you make me felt last year.
Be good to me this year too, ya..
Or at least, let me be spiritually and mentally stronger than previous months!

😊

Kerana DIA juga bisa membuka kunci

Salam.


pantas jemari mengimbau
selakan demi selakan
satu persatu diperhati kaku
benar kaku.
keras tanpa belas.

teriak mata
membaca mantra
namun tewas.
habis juraian mutiara
melimpah dari takungan ikhlas.

sebak
puas telapak tangan menutup degup
konon hati mampu dipangku
rebah jua dalam hela nafas.

lalu dalam getar menahan rasa
bibir berkumat perlahan
kalimah Tuhan Maha Agung
disebut acap kali
bersulam nafas sebak,
berteman titisan jernih kolam mata.

****

Duhai sayang,
dalam indah dan tribulasi,
carilah DIA, Tuhan yang memegang hati.

Salam.

10 syawal
10 hari selepas peninggalan Ramadhan.
apa yang masih kita kekalkan?
apa yang telah kita tinggalkan?
apa yang terkesan di sanubari kita, kawan?

Hidup boleh berubah dalam sekelip mata.
Dan sekelip mata itulah yang kita khuatiri.

Tanpa persediaan, bagaimana mampu bertahan?

TUHAN.
Itulah awal. akhir dan selamanya.

Weirdo

Ramadhan 21 #iftaarwithhostelstudents #7july2015

I learn that sometimes tragedy does not only happen in drama or novel. It happens to people around us too. So be grateful with the life that we have.
Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.

Persons we called 'weirdo' stms have their own 'history'. And they are also blessed with unique abilities. Like miss I, she is gifted with fast memorization (though she was known as a lone ranger, garang and 'weird').

Just because we dont see people doing it much, doesnt make it weird. Unless it is totally and morally wrong, and against our religion.

Qolbu

Qolbu

Berubah ubah.

Enak kita memperkatakan hilangnya kewarasan seorang ibu tatkala dia mendera bayinya persis boneka hidup. -"gila!" Kata kita.

Seronok kite mempersoalkan ke mana hilangnya kejujuran seorang insan bila di sua setempayan kekayaan.-"tamak!" Kata kita

Ketawa mengilai kita melihat seorang gadis menangis mengekspresi emosi pabila ditipu sang arjuna buaya -"padan muka!" Kata kita.

Bukankah segala kata negatif itu lebih baik digantikan dengan doa tanpa henti dan permohonan perlindungan dari Ilahi, daripada melakukan kesilapan yang sama?

Kerna qolbu itu sifatnya tidak tetap.
Hari ini kau mungkin insan terbaik buat masyarakat..
Namun esok tatkala diuji..
Dan qolbumu memberontak lalu terpejam seketika,
Mungkin kaulah insan terhina di mata masyarakat.

Mohon pada NYA,
pada Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati...
Tetapkanlah hati ini pada jalan NYA.

Ps.
Hati. Aku suka bicara mengenainya.
Sudah bertahun lamanya bersama, tapi hanya sedikit yang aku fahami.

daughter

Salam.


Ramadhan 18, Sunday

i went quite late to Masjid An Nur for isyak and terawih,
but Alhamdulillah, i managed to squeeze into the mesjid (not the outside saf)
it was the last saf inside the mesjid, in between 2 little girls.
i felt like a mommy with two daughters. hehe.
and the girl on my right,
she performed all 8 rakaat of terawih + 3 rakaat of witir,
without complaining or having the urge to join other kids playing.
If she's my daughter, i would kiss her.
May you grow up to be a pious servant of ALLAH SWT, daughter, wife and mother.
(and may i have the chance to be one too, in sya ALLAH)

*******

Earlier, i met an unexpected person at aeon ipoh.
we stumbled upon each other and were kinda stunned.
i tried really hard to recognize his name, or at least, how i knew this familiar face.
"ok, this must be my primary school friend. but man! what's his name ya??"
*thinking...thinking*
until he then said, "teacher...sarah kan?"
*facepalm
it's my ex 5PD 2013 student!
my favourite class of the year (the funniest and hilarious class). hehe.
still, it was quite hard for me to recall his name until.... i got into the fitting room.
yes, his name is Aqil Amsyar!
i didnt forget u. and happy fasting :)

kelibat

Salam.

masih ingat bagaimana sekeping puisi di bulan Ramadhan mengukir senyuman sepenuh hati,
dan senyuman ke telinga itu juga yang kau tangisi,
kerna khuatir ia bakal bikin hati terisi lebih dengan dia berbanding DIA.
khuatir melalaikan, khuatir rasa itu bukan milik dirimu yang hakiki.
khuatir ia semua adalah sementara.

dan sementara itu yang terjadi.

Tuhan.
Ampuni kami semua yang sering alpa.
Tuhan,
Bantulah kami mencintai- MU melebihi diri kami,
keluarga kami dan air yang dingin.

Smile on her face

Her pencil case was torn, old and had lots of pen marks on it. It looked as if it was given by her elder siblings..or perhaps the one that she had used since years.

I noticed that few weeks ago. And it was few weeks ago that i told her to come and meet me after school..i wanted to give her a new pencil case; one that i bought at s.iskandar. sadly..she didnt come and see me.

So today, again. I told her to go to the staffroom and bring along her pencil case. This time, i walked with her. I asked a few things bout herself, just to get to know her more. She was really a quiet student. When i first taught her class last year, she even sulked with me when i asked her a question (on english language of course). She didnt look at me but just stared at the window blankly. She was not the kind of student who is rude but she is soo introvert and quiet; very different from her younger brother who is really talkative and her elder sister who is quite hot-tempered (with her classmates).

So i invited her to my table.
Then i gave her a new pencil case. She smiled.. a really sincere smile. Her eyes were smiling too. It was just a pencil case.. it was less than rm 10 but her smile was priceless.
I didnt really have a long chat with her coz another teacher might have entered her class. So before she went back to her class, she called me. I thought she just wanted to say thank you but she offered her hands, to salam/shake hands with me.

Alhamdulillah and thank you L for giving me the chance to do something good today.

I rarely write and share these kinda things in my blog. But the fact that i had shared it here today makes me feels even pumped up to do more. In sya Allah.

Please pray that i could always do better, more and beyond teaching. Somehow i think that it is not really them who need me. But im the one who need them, as a medium to do good. I need to instil 'ilmu yg bermanfaat' and do more 'sedeqah jariah'. Let it be small but continuously. May Allah safeguard me, and us all from being selfish and insincere.

#ramadhan1436/2015

Step

How can you ever forget,
...when all of em are happy memories?

Usik

Tika kau intai,
Saat itu hati terusik.
Mata berkaca,
Tunggu masa tumpah mencurah.

Tika itu,
Bisikkan kalimah Tuhan berulang kali.
Hingga hilang keterusikan menggila.

Ldr hubs n wives

Im amazed at how people could survive LDR after marriage..
I mean,away from spouse and perhaps their child(ren).
They r really strong, emotionally and spiritually.
It must be because of HIM.
'Bertemu dan berpisah(sementara) kerana Dia'.

Moga Allah SWT sentiasa berkati para isteri dan suami yang berkasih sayang kerana DIA.