Hidup boleh berubah dalam sekelip mata.
Dan sekelip mata itulah yang kita khuatiri.
Tanpa persediaan, bagaimana mampu bertahan?
TUHAN.
Itulah awal. akhir dan selamanya.
Ramadhan 21 #iftaarwithhostelstudents #7july2015
I learn that sometimes tragedy does not only happen in drama or novel. It happens to people around us too. So be grateful with the life that we have.
Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.
Persons we called 'weirdo' stms have their own 'history'. And they are also blessed with unique abilities. Like miss I, she is gifted with fast memorization (though she was known as a lone ranger, garang and 'weird').
Just because we dont see people doing it much, doesnt make it weird. Unless it is totally and morally wrong, and against our religion.
Qolbu
Berubah ubah.
Enak kita memperkatakan hilangnya kewarasan seorang ibu tatkala dia mendera bayinya persis boneka hidup. -"gila!" Kata kita.
Seronok kite mempersoalkan ke mana hilangnya kejujuran seorang insan bila di sua setempayan kekayaan.-"tamak!" Kata kita
Ketawa mengilai kita melihat seorang gadis menangis mengekspresi emosi pabila ditipu sang arjuna buaya -"padan muka!" Kata kita.
Bukankah segala kata negatif itu lebih baik digantikan dengan doa tanpa henti dan permohonan perlindungan dari Ilahi, daripada melakukan kesilapan yang sama?
Kerna qolbu itu sifatnya tidak tetap.
Hari ini kau mungkin insan terbaik buat masyarakat..
Namun esok tatkala diuji..
Dan qolbumu memberontak lalu terpejam seketika,
Mungkin kaulah insan terhina di mata masyarakat.
Mohon pada NYA,
pada Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati...
Tetapkanlah hati ini pada jalan NYA.
Ps.
Hati. Aku suka bicara mengenainya.
Sudah bertahun lamanya bersama, tapi hanya sedikit yang aku fahami.
Her pencil case was torn, old and had lots of pen marks on it. It looked as if it was given by her elder siblings..or perhaps the one that she had used since years.
I noticed that few weeks ago. And it was few weeks ago that i told her to come and meet me after school..i wanted to give her a new pencil case; one that i bought at s.iskandar. sadly..she didnt come and see me.
So today, again. I told her to go to the staffroom and bring along her pencil case. This time, i walked with her. I asked a few things bout herself, just to get to know her more. She was really a quiet student. When i first taught her class last year, she even sulked with me when i asked her a question (on english language of course). She didnt look at me but just stared at the window blankly. She was not the kind of student who is rude but she is soo introvert and quiet; very different from her younger brother who is really talkative and her elder sister who is quite hot-tempered (with her classmates).
So i invited her to my table.
Then i gave her a new pencil case. She smiled.. a really sincere smile. Her eyes were smiling too. It was just a pencil case.. it was less than rm 10 but her smile was priceless.
I didnt really have a long chat with her coz another teacher might have entered her class. So before she went back to her class, she called me. I thought she just wanted to say thank you but she offered her hands, to salam/shake hands with me.
Alhamdulillah and thank you L for giving me the chance to do something good today.
I rarely write and share these kinda things in my blog. But the fact that i had shared it here today makes me feels even pumped up to do more. In sya Allah.
Please pray that i could always do better, more and beyond teaching. Somehow i think that it is not really them who need me. But im the one who need them, as a medium to do good. I need to instil 'ilmu yg bermanfaat' and do more 'sedeqah jariah'. Let it be small but continuously. May Allah safeguard me, and us all from being selfish and insincere.
#ramadhan1436/2015
Tika kau intai,
Saat itu hati terusik.
Mata berkaca,
Tunggu masa tumpah mencurah.
Tika itu,
Bisikkan kalimah Tuhan berulang kali.
Hingga hilang keterusikan menggila.
Im amazed at how people could survive LDR after marriage..
I mean,away from spouse and perhaps their child(ren).
They r really strong, emotionally and spiritually.
It must be because of HIM.
'Bertemu dan berpisah(sementara) kerana Dia'.
Moga Allah SWT sentiasa berkati para isteri dan suami yang berkasih sayang kerana DIA.
Bila dah sayang,
Semuanya akan jadi lain macam.
Lahir 'hope'
Terbit 'expectation'
Mahu 'tahu' segala perihal
Terlebih 'ambil berat'
'Sakit' sana sini...
Keluar macam-macam rasa.
Rasa luar biasa.
Dan luar kebiasaan ini yang buat kita gelisah.
kau,
Ingatkanlah aku pada Pemegang Hati.
Agar aku bawa DIA dalam segala rasa.
Went to the mines for book shopping at BBW. #030615 #wednesday.
My last BBW shopping was on december 2013.
When i was at seri kembangan,
My mind was else where.
All d driving and getting lost...
All d walking and carrying books..
Stepping up the stairs...
The indoor 'stream',
McDonalds,
Sections of books at BBW,
the crowd...
Every single detail...
My eyes started to get teary.
I needed distraction.
Though it felt right, ive gotta admit that i kinda came to the wrong place.
#rbtl
One of my dreams is to travel the world.
I want to have this big globe and world map in my room, on my table..so i could see the world, mark the countries that ive been to and dream more of going to places.
Dihukum dengan kesenyapan dunia,
Tertipu dengan kedaifan rasa.
Mana pergi hati yang kononnya mapan?
Satu hal yang kau tak boleh paksa..
Perihal hati.
Perlu masa.
Perlu usaha.
Perlu doa.
Banyak banyak doa
Kawan aku.
Sering berkongsi kisah cintanya.
Bersama yang dahulu kekasih, kini isteri beranak lima.
Katanya,
Lelaki punya degup.
Serius aku ketawa.
Degup??
Lalu dia sambung..
"Serius ni wan sarah"...
Ok lah...
Explain...
Katanyaaaa...
Untuk jatuh suka dengan serius,
Harus ada rasa "degup" itu.
Itu kata dia.
Degup.
Dalam hati, aku terfikir...
Sudahnya... kalau ada yg berdegup 2,3,4 kali...
Pada insan yang berbeza
Bagaimana?
Ah.. terpacul pula soalan tadi pada dia.
"Sebab itulah lelaki ada yang kawen lebih..."
*senyap*
"Kak Susan...tengok cg Edward ni ha..macam ada niat nak bagi akak payung emas je ni..."
Pasangan ideal ini mmg dah biasa dgn gurauan poligami si suami.
Dan aku...sambung makan dengan tenang. Hahah.
********
#namarekaansemata
I got a friend whom always know how to start, what to say and could always put up with me; no matter what i say or how mad i could be.
And a good counsellor too.
Someone whom i could say, "hmm i feel sad.. Can u please say or share sth comforting.."
Then puff! All sorts of comforting ayat, words, jokes and motivations were there in less than a minute.
If she was a guy, I couldve fallen for him.
This one kakak.
She is pretty..a well-experienced teacher and a happy-go-lucky kinda person..senyum sokmo.
And cantik.
Yeah..i said pretty twice coz she is.
She is also quite known for her busy life (earning more and more money is one of the things she likes to do; as she said so).
So we asked her about her part-time job at this one private institution. She said she had quit.
And we asked why coz as i said, she loves the money.
"U know what, ...when i was younger, i love to chase money.. i want to earn more and more money. But after quite stms, it becomes tiring. And once uve experienced the death of a fam member, u will realize that u need to spend more time with ur family. I worked at xxxx every friday and returned home at night. The next day, i was too tired already. And my family demanded my time during weekend. So i quitted."
It makes me think.
What do i really want in life?
In my 20s..in my 30s and in my 40s....so on...(if Allah permits me to have a longer life)..
More money?
Higher academic qualification?
More kids? (if im blessed with a marriage and children)
Bigger house and luxurious car?
I want a blessed life.
Blessed with the love of Allah.
Losing things that are near to your heart is indeed, devastating.
It leaves a deep mark,
a mark that only you and HE knows.
The heart is still beating,
Tears are still rolling,
Mind is still wondering.
True.
The heart should only be filled with the remembrance of the Most Gracious,
as only HIS love lasts forever.
p/s: months and 'soberness'.
Jendela.
Betapa mahu kau ke sana.
Ke arah mana mata kau capai.
Tapi sayang.
Tertutup rapat, terkunci rapi.
Tiada mampu walau satu hembusan, walau satu bingkisan untuk masuk.
Hanya mampu intip dalam kelam,
...di celahan pemisah luar dan dalam.
🗻💐☕🌁 #010415 #wednesday #gststartstoday #ofapril14
Orang yang mudah lalai seperti aku..
Memang perlu kepada peringatan berulang kali tanpa jemu..
Peringatan dan nasihat berhikmah, agar aku mampu berubah,
dalam istiqamah.
In sya Allah.
Salam
Kau tak tahu betapa jantung berdegup laju,
Fikiran melayang selalu,
Bila fikir perkara yang aku sendiri tak tahu,
...sama ada aku mampu.
Semahunya diri mahu jadi yang terbaik.
Tapi diri lebih kenali hati.
Banyak hitam dari putih suci.
Lalu mengundang pelbagai persoalan dalam diri.
Sudah ready,
untuk hadapi semua nanti?
Kalau cinta,
Sama-sama banyakkan doa.
Kalau benar cinta,
Sama-sama bawa ke syurga.
Barulah sama-sama elak derita,
Sama-sama kecap bahagia.
Ps: peringatan untuk diri.