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Salam.

8 march

there are times when you look back, you feel like crying. 

i dont know why but lately ive been looking back to hundreds of pictures that i took in 2008-2010. 

and i also listened to some melancholic songs. i think i just missed my friends and my student's life. 

it felt like..something was lost.

smooth

as for tonight, i dont feel quite usual.. now i know how smooth one could be. and how dangerous could it be. and how warnings could be useful.

sound
i missed singing out loud and playing my guitar. it was out of tune and i hate that i could not even tune my own guitar. the sound was a total disaster. i really need someone who could tune it. 

well, someone near my house. :p.

things at school were becoming more interesting. 

YET, i am still struggling with my 4PD class. and the rest, i hope things will go smooth. I think, the boys and girls in the class were totally with high rising hormones. touching here and there, flirting and more (I heard these from a few teachers and some flirting scenes, i saw them myself).  however, there were still a quarter of them that wanted to learn. so, despite this kinda feeling that i have, i need to be strong to teach them. but i dont know how to win them over.

puppy love.
It was just funny when you learnt a few things bout your students' love life. it was kinda reminscing those school life that you had. so i had this form 4 male student, couple with a form 5 girl who actually combined their names in an email and carved it on surau's wall. and that didnt include those love dovey puppy love messages that they had in their handphones (other students). and living in a hostel, you also could make a few observations. I always went down to DM to kinda observe the students, before i ate. usually, the same faces were the ones late for dinner. those atheletic ones would eat a lot while tiny ones just had small portion of food. they dont quite like soupy vegetables but enjoyed fried vegetables. There was this one time, the boys played this weird game when he put a peanut in his friend's tea and his friend then did the same thing to him. i was like... what were you doing form 4 students??? cant you just eat n drink peacefully?!

kids lover
another scene, I was talking to a DM worker and then this one boy came with white bubbles on his left ear. The aunty then told him that he still had unwashed soap on his left ear. he was laughing out loud in embarrassment and went out to wash his ear. I was laughing too, it was funny. Like, you were form 6 but still...soap? then, makcik DM told me that the boy really loved kids. When the other mak ciks brought their small kids, he hugged them. and then that mak cik asked him whether he likes kids or not. So he answered, "kalau ada orang datang raya, bawak baby, saya mesti amik baby tuh dulu".  

hmmm, how cute and adorable is that?? :D

and that- their weird and (very few) loveable actions, 

are actually kinda joys that i have while living in the hostel.

oh ya, last monday, while i was teaching my 1c, suddenly this one boy called me..."teacher.." and showed me something. I couldnt help but laughed. i laughed coz it was soo random..he showed me a wired love shape- while the rest was writing a paragraph of essay.

and kelab pecinta alam sekitar
again, i was proposed to join this nature lovers' club. yes, i love nature but i dont quite enjoy camping activities. why? coz there is no proper toilet. and that is a big problem for me. T_T. They will have this jungle trekking and perhaps camping at Hutan Belum. Yes, Hutan Belum!!. Hutan memang hutan yang hutan. ko paham tak? T_T. i wanted to say no. but i dont have valid reasons. Plus, they were lack of female teachers. 

I like adventure but i hate places without proper toilet and i hate leeches and insects and darkness. but of course, i would take this as a challendge and a good experience (hoepfully it will be a good one..huhu).

and i am grateful with what i have
I cant say much bout this but having to see and be at a place that may not be as comfortable as you have, i would say that I would try to be more grateful with what i have. I should remember that there are people who are less fortunate than myself. and of course there are also those who are more fortunate but whatever it is, 

be grateful!

p/s: oh yeahh??