Salam.

this is just a reflection, on LOVE.

dulu, aku pernah sukakan somebody so so so much.
to the point that, i was so sure that he was the one.
i have no doubt on it, cuma i wasnt so sure on his part.
coz he wasnt too verbal bout it. and aku pun sejenis malu2.
yes, aku terlalu berharap lah konsepnya, til one day,
he asked for time to think.
and after a few months,
he said NO, through wA.
of coz i was so sedih.
i kept blaming myself for it.
sedih, but tak pernah benci or doakan bukan2.
keliru, but tak pernah putus berharap and doakan yang baik2.
and it took me about 4 years to completely move on.
dalam 4thn tu, ive met with 2 guys who were serious with me,
tapi aku masih tak dapat nak terima, though mereka baik.
susah amat rupanya nak moved on - ni tara2 ber'cinta' sekejap and tak over.
ntah berapa kotak tisu aku habis sebab nangis.
from there, i learn that, from my eyes, dia adalah perfect.
but i wasnt perfect for him.
and i believe that PERFECT di mata, tak bermaksud SERASI di hati.
chemistry pun penting.
and i drew myself closer to ALLAH SWT.

so nasihat aku pada mereka dengan kes sebegini:
1. jgn salahkan diri, byk kan doa yg baik2
2. bila lelaki dah say "no", jangan berharap lagi. lagi cepat move on, lagi bagus :)
-end of case 3-

physically or emotionally?

I got the drill now.

It was difficult for me to sleep early during MCO phases.

I slept around 1am-2am. And i did wish to sleep earlier.

And these few days, i slept as early as 9.30pm.. sometimes earlier than that. 

.

Ive got the drill now. 

I understand me better.

I will sleep way earlier for 2 main reasons;

a) if i am way way way too tired coz of physical activities/programs

Or 

b) if i am emotionally drained. Mentally tired. 

I think i dont mind being physically exhausted as compared to being emotionally tired.

Sleeping is a temporary therapy for me.It relieves, but it doesnt solve much.

And im emotionally tired.