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Salam.


KEPERCAYAAN.
Tinggi bergunung nilai.
Rebah pasak, runtuhlah semua.
Usah ditarah kepercayaan tertanam kukuh.
Takkan naik semula seutuh dulu.

p/s: When people TRUST you,
that means a LOT.
Trust does not build there and then,
it might take years.
...but ironically it could be destroyed in the blink of eyes.

you DONT know me

Salam

  

  Sometimes asking questions is more difficult than answering them.

 
p/s: Dont act like a shrink. 
Dont deduce people into categories based on a small mole. 
We just dont know everything about them.

1313

Salam.

nothing is easy in this world.
it is just how we perceive things.
(still, im gonna blab no matter how easy or hard things may look like. :p)

*****

I like to count things,
it gives some sort of motivation to me.
like, how im really looking forward to Friday so i could meet my parents.
like, how now, im waiting for Saturday, 2pm so i could go back to ipoh.
like, how im counting weeks before our next school holidays.
and like, how im counting weeeeeksss before the end of the semester.

the thing with counting is,
it involves waiting.
patience.
and..........
sometimes, it feels like forever.
and when the time comes,
it gives that bittersweet kinda feelings.

so yeah, counting and waiting are a complicated pair.
like u and i. eh? hahaha.

*****

i kinda dislike how my Friday now turns to be quite a stressful day.
where i would have very little break in between classes at school,
when i couldnt manage to eat a proper breakfast or lunch.
where i would walk faster than my usual days and looking like a colony of busy ants carrying eggs.
when i would be eating buns and drinking mocha while driving.
...and singing to avoid being sleepy.

*my driving skills are getting better by weeks; i could now eat buns, ice cream, crackers or biscuits and drink using a straw while driving. Still, fail to eat burger or nasi berlauk (lol).


*****

This one lecturer, Prof A.
So far, i like his style.
He's organised. He told us what to expect in the course, etc.
He smiles a lot (nice set of teeth, that calm face and cute mustache..lol)
Most of the time, he presents the lectures (when i am the student, i prefer the traditional way. :p), gives handouts, etc.
BUT.... the workloads are kinda a lot. huhu.
(ok, i feel you my students..hehe :p )

*****

i actually have lotsa things to say/ write.
about life, work life, student life, etc.
but i better stop now. :D

p/s: i got book vouchers. Alhamdulillah. need suggestions for good educational books to buy. :)

mind grammar

Salam.

Life is not a perfect essay.
where every line is filled with bombastic words, perfect grammar and correct use of punctuations.
it might be a retarded essay,
full of weird words, imperfect grammar and incorrect use of punctuations.
sometimes, people just want to know the meaning, 'feel' the story and enjoy reading it,
without having to focus so much on its imperfections.

but no doubt that efforts should be made; 

to write a perfect essay that could be a song to the heart.

p/s: as long as the mistakes are being taken into one's learning process, then making a new mistake is a sign of progress, i believe.

i slept with a stranger.

Salam.


So last night,

my roommate was a random girl whom i never met and never really had a chance to speak with.

what i knew,
she entered the room when i was asleep.
i woke up for a while (realising that someone entered the room),
exchanged a sleepy smile and slept back. lol

and the first word i spoke to her was ....
"awakk...ada kelas pagi tak?"
lol. that was when i woke her up in the morning.

so yeah,
i left my roomate before she woke up.

mannn... would it always be like this for weeks ahead??

  haha. funny and also scary..(from google image)

p/s: since im renting a room with 2 single beds on a weekly basis, i kinda have to anticipate new girl every week to be my roommate. Praying that they are angels. 

midFeb

Salam.

It is February already, indeed, mid Feb.
as always, in life, there would be ups and downs of energy and motivation.
when we feel all pumped up,
it feels like we have all the energy in the world that would move us around.

As my CNY break is ending and my MA class is approaching, i could feel the tense.
this sem, i think i would be and should be more independent as my wing lady, kak A wouldnt be around.
so yeah, expect me to drive alone alllll the time,
and to rent alone at a cheap hotel if the science peeps are not there (we have different schedule).
i hate that. but, i need to be strong(er) to complete this path.
and i should work smarter and pray harder to sustain good result, in sya ALLAH.


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and school.
2 notorious classes that kinda make my heart pumping faster.
1 class that could make me scratches my head thinking of ways to at least make 'em pass the subject.
and 2 classes that i have to work hard to ensure they could get an A in English.

students, though they could drive you crazy, in the end, you are the one who are in controlled.

but administrators, colleagues...
different case.lol.
you might or not be in controlled.
they arent either.
it is sometimes, office politics ruled over the whole thing.

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i also need to absorb more positive energy.
*inhalingggg*
to be surrounded by people with positiveness.
and to be closer to ALLAH..(HE is the source of calmness and positiveness in life, indeed)
like seriously, i could be so....hyped up, moody, melancholy and poetic at random time.
worse, i could suddenly crave for food, things, places.... almost anything. 
so...yeah, it's time to channel those energy towards something beneficial.
food craving is sometimes good coz it drives me to prepare/ bake/ cook em (unless i buy or bodek other people to cook/buy..lol)
and being all that mushy kinda unleash that lil Shakespeare in myself (erk? lol).
all im saying,  it would be fun to sometimes write something RBTL coz i like subtle though i do appreciate truthfulness  : )

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and one thing that i couldnt stop is to nag about my weight gain. lol.
i knowww...people, dont make that face!
i nagged coz ive gained 4kilos. and to lose that, it might take 4years (oh please not). lol.
im not that kinda person who exercises a lot.
i love to jog (when it's not too sunny..:p), i like outdoor activities. but i rarely do that if im alone.
so basically if i dont have my frienergy or brothergy booster, i rarely do that. (alasaannn..kah!).
but...i should start exercising, in whatever forms lah..
my stamina, my energy dah macam drained out dah. coz lelemak dah takluk.lol
hmm...yoga or dancing would be fun? :D
try ok.

p.s: Jealousy is innate. it is just that, dont make it as a big part of ourselves. too much of it, annoys most people and worse, kills humanity in oneself.

Sleepy heart

Salam

Whenever i need to sleep early,
That's when my eyes shut late..
Unfortunately, later than normal.
Whenever i gotta stay up late,
That is when i could easily sleep early.
No sheep counting watsoever.
Maybe i need to learn that apart from feelings,
sleeping cant be forced too (well unless u r on med).
It will come naturally.
You feel it when you feel it.

Some people sleep easily.
Some fell for a lullaby.
Some with the power or touch and caress.
Some effortless; standing, loud noise, bright room..wherever and whenever.
And of course there are some who have difficult time falling asleep.
But it is a matter of time,
till we'll reach our lala land,
sailing our own sweet dreams.

Good night :)

p/s: RBTL