midFeb

Salam.

It is February already, indeed, mid Feb.
as always, in life, there would be ups and downs of energy and motivation.
when we feel all pumped up,
it feels like we have all the energy in the world that would move us around.

As my CNY break is ending and my MA class is approaching, i could feel the tense.
this sem, i think i would be and should be more independent as my wing lady, kak A wouldnt be around.
so yeah, expect me to drive alone alllll the time,
and to rent alone at a cheap hotel if the science peeps are not there (we have different schedule).
i hate that. but, i need to be strong(er) to complete this path.
and i should work smarter and pray harder to sustain good result, in sya ALLAH.


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and school.
2 notorious classes that kinda make my heart pumping faster.
1 class that could make me scratches my head thinking of ways to at least make 'em pass the subject.
and 2 classes that i have to work hard to ensure they could get an A in English.

students, though they could drive you crazy, in the end, you are the one who are in controlled.

but administrators, colleagues...
different case.lol.
you might or not be in controlled.
they arent either.
it is sometimes, office politics ruled over the whole thing.

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i also need to absorb more positive energy.
*inhalingggg*
to be surrounded by people with positiveness.
and to be closer to ALLAH..(HE is the source of calmness and positiveness in life, indeed)
like seriously, i could be so....hyped up, moody, melancholy and poetic at random time.
worse, i could suddenly crave for food, things, places.... almost anything. 
so...yeah, it's time to channel those energy towards something beneficial.
food craving is sometimes good coz it drives me to prepare/ bake/ cook em (unless i buy or bodek other people to cook/buy..lol)
and being all that mushy kinda unleash that lil Shakespeare in myself (erk? lol).
all im saying,  it would be fun to sometimes write something RBTL coz i like subtle though i do appreciate truthfulness  : )

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and one thing that i couldnt stop is to nag about my weight gain. lol.
i knowww...people, dont make that face!
i nagged coz ive gained 4kilos. and to lose that, it might take 4years (oh please not). lol.
im not that kinda person who exercises a lot.
i love to jog (when it's not too sunny..:p), i like outdoor activities. but i rarely do that if im alone.
so basically if i dont have my frienergy or brothergy booster, i rarely do that. (alasaannn..kah!).
but...i should start exercising, in whatever forms lah..
my stamina, my energy dah macam drained out dah. coz lelemak dah takluk.lol
hmm...yoga or dancing would be fun? :D
try ok.

p.s: Jealousy is innate. it is just that, dont make it as a big part of ourselves. too much of it, annoys most people and worse, kills humanity in oneself.