Mudah bukannya rendah

Good deeds.

Sewaktu sampai di masjidil haram mekah, sudah menghampiri waktunya maghrib. Maka kami solat maghrib dahulu. Usai maghrib, dtg wanita arab menghulurkan sebekas kurma. Jalan2 lagi ada yg menghulurkan biskut buat asyraaf sambil bertanya pada mamanya adakah diizinkan.
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Sewaktu umrah kedua pula (miqat di jaaranah), kami tawaf di kala tengah hari. Di kala panas itu, dtg seorang wanita berjalan sambil menghulur kotak tisu buat para jemaah mengelap keringat mereka tika tawaf. Modalnya hanya sekotak tisu dan ikhlas. Beliau jalan, senyum dan hulur tanpa tunggu balasan walau sepotong terima kasih pun.
Sangat mudah tapi indah!
Terkesan.
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Kita biasa dibesarkan dengan berbuat baik berupa sedekah wang ringgit,
berupa pemberian hadiah.
Skop sedekah itu luas.
Berbuat baik spt menghulurkan sehelai tisu itu juga mudah, walaupun dilihat sbg kecil di mata kasar.
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Teringat kata2 ustaz berkaitan makmum masbuk.

Jemaah : "ustaz, klo kita dah lewat solat jemaah, imam dah nak sujud, elok tunggu next rakaat or sujud?(yela, sbb kalau sujud pun rakaat itu x di kira sbg 1 rakaat)"
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Jawapan ustaz amat menyentapkan aku sebab kalau aku, aku akan tunggu imam masuk next rakaat and follow 😅😅😅.
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Ustaz : jika dalam keadaan itu (masih punya masa utk angkat takbir dgn sempurna dll), eloklah IKUT IMAM SUJUD. Kerana tanpa kita ketahui, mungkin perbuatan sujud kita itu mendatangkan lebih byk kebaikan dan redha Allah buat kita.
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Ya, jgn menilai sekecil2 perbuatan dgn nilai yg enteng. Kebaikan yg nampak mudah, tidak semestinya bererti nilainya juga rendah.
Kerna hakikatnya, kita tidak tahu perbuatan baik mana yg punya nilai besar di sisi-NYA. Wallahu'alam.

#170218saturday
#notetoself #notetoself #notetoself !
#sharingIsCaring #catatanharamainsara

I used to think that new york city or vegas is the city that never sleeps... until i came here.

Makkah adalah kota cinta sejati yg tak pernah mati.
Sentiasa ada hati yg melangkah ke arah sana.
Sentiasa ada jiwa yg berada di masjidil haram berharap pada yg Maha Mendengar.
Baitullah tidak pernah kosong dari tawafnya insan, melainkan kala solat dilaksanakan.
Saie tidak pernah tidak ada manusia yg berada di sana.

Lalu bertanyalah hati,
Kalau bukan kerna cinta, masakan berpusu pusu manusia datang dari pelusuk dunia utk mengabdi diri pada Pencipta?

Kalau bukan kerna cinta,masakan berpusu2 manusia menyahut jemputan-Nya setiap detik.

Kalau bukan kerna cinta,
Masakan jiwa bisa terusik,
mata bisa bergenang dan hati bisa rindu amat pada baitullahilharam?

Labbaikallahummalabbaik.

Last friday i was quite frustrated with my f5 students. Yela, kita punyalah berdegap degup jantungku sbb masa amat suntuk dh tpi bila buat kelas kul 3-5.30 tu, only 18/30 je yg ada. Pukul 3 tu pun baru dua tiga je ada. Yg lain sampai 3.30. And.. yg tak dtg sampai ke sudah kelas tak inform apa2 to me.
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I have informed them bout the class a week earlier. I reminded em again and again. Of course my expectation tinggi; if not all, at least 25 would come.
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I dont just dislike, but i hate late notice coz it disturbs other people's plan. Coz none of the 12 told me anything bout their absence (except 1), ia ibarat harapan dan expectation yang dihancurkan lah. I planned and prepared for the class, i waited for them. Dgn tak sempat makannya, rushing bagai but 12 org tak datang. And... bila habis kelas at 5.30pm tu, i saw 2 girls yg tak hadir tu naik motor and they saw me! So mereka sorok muka ok.
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Sedih, frust and geram pun ada. Kalau dlm dunia percintaan, mungkin dah merajuk dah la. Ahahaha. Tpi yela, nk merajuk apanya dgn students kann 😂... so mengajar mcm biasalah.
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But students ni ada magic nya.. they could actually read your face (or maybe i made it clear). So soon after that, i received pm from them- saying sorry and explaining themselves.
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I dont ask much. If tak dpt dtg, inform me early. Xde transport,i could fetch em klau dekat. Or i could arrange for their transport. I mean, INITIATE, INFORM & COMMUNICATE. If ramai xdpt dtg coz of valid reasons, i could reschedule.
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Jgnlah janji nak datang, tapi takde efforts pun..
Plan itu ini, tapi last2 back off mcm tu je.. fikirlah hati org lain juga.. manusia tak selamanya hati sado.
Eh?

Sekian.

Cross paths

I have never ever thought of people who had caused me to cry buckets as BAD.
I've never hated them too.
If they have broken my heart, they must have been special to my heart.
And to be special, their hearts are what matter to me- their kindness.
And how could one hate kind people, whom countless times had been the reasons behind our smiles and laughters?
Perhaps circumstances and my imperfections had actually caused our paths to never cross again.
And for that, I regret and sincerely apologize..
I truly am.

arah

Salam.

selama tak melangkah,
selagi itu tak tahu arah.
kanan kiri depan belakang atau tengah.

bawa lampu, suluh,
tunjuk arah, aku langkah
lambat perlahan asal kau ada bersama,
aku gagah.

pokoknya,
mulakan dengan suluhan cahaya.
bukan tepat pada mata;
terang tapi membuta.
tapi tepat pada apa DIA kata,
sejuk dan meyakinkan kita.

p/s:

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hati tisu

Last few months, I went to my eldest bro's office.
Lepak kejap.
So he accompanied me to the office's cafe though he was fasting.. (ive told him that i wouldnt mind eating there alone but he insisted).
So while i was eating..we chatted.
Then he asked me sth.
My eyes were teary..
It was out of my control..i got melancholy in answering his question and my eyes reacted so fast with my emotion.
And...
I could see him a lil bit panicked..
..that he quickly changed the subject.

Hati tisu..
Macam ni lah..

29072015

Depressed

Incomplete.
It is like everything has been put on pause for so long.
And all the plot is confusing.
Even the main character does not know what to do.
Should help been seeked or given?
Disappointed, heart-broken, confused and helpless.
How could plot be twisted; towards a happy ending?- Tell her.