Ce cite

Salam.

Aku lahir dan besar di Perak.

Tapi, belajar bukan di Ipoh.

So jangan pelik kalau aku tak tahu jalan Ipoh sangat.

Dulu, masa Bani kawin, aku rasa pelik bila dengar caterer tuh cakap Perak.

Then, bila aku tolong Bani cari baju kawin, 

aku pelik lagi bila dengar orang cakap Perak.

Tapi sekarang, aku pelik bila tak dengar orang cakap Perak.

Students, cikgu, staff, sms, facebook,

semua loghat Perak. aku pulak yang kekok.

oh ya, bulan lepas jugak, first time setelah 10 tahun lebih, aku dengar lagu negeri Perak berkumandang.

beriring dengan musik dan nyanyian. aku tak lupa liriknya..

Cuma, aku baru tahu part mana perlu panjang, dan part mana perlu pendek. 

Dulu sekolah rendah, main tarik je mana-mana nak panjang, main redah je mana-mana nak pendek.

Rasa seronok dapat nyanyi lagu negeri Perak di negeri sendiri beriring lagu setelah sekian lama. :)

p/s: kenapa rasa malas? xdak mood? esok dah khamis. gejala homesick akan tiba bila Jumaat T__T

plain

Salam.

My friend said that soon enough, i will love the place.

but how soon is soon?

it takes 4 months for her. what if I take longer?

what if it never happens?

I neither love (yet) nor loathe the place

Should it be one or another then?

Nevertheless, i still am grateful for everything that happens.

p/s: today should be a productive day. well, hopefully.

sport

Salam.

Been meaning to share my experience during Kejohanan Olahraga Peringkat Daerah that was held from 7 till 10th March last week. So as i told before, i was actually the judge for High Jump. with very least experience and knowledge bout this sport, i kinda do what i have to do. So with some helps from Cg Lan, Ustaz Amir and others, it went ok, Alhamdulillah.

and what i kinda like was the fact that from the 3 of us (the judges), i got the least heavy job- as the score keeper. I jotted down the scores and it was done under the tent. not so much under the hot sun..hihi. of course the men were the ones supposed to adjust the mattresses and poles and measurement. but i helped them too. So it was kinda fair lah...

ko mampu orang tangkap gamba ko, tunjuk flying kick ngan penumbuk sekaligus??!!
 

It was fun to see those kids with talents and sportsmenship, supporting each other- no matter how old or young are they. and what fascinated me was how this young boy of 17 managed to jump as high as 1.85metres (the district record). wow! and to compare primary and secondary school teachers, i would say that primary school teachers were more pumped up in terms of supporting their students compared to secondary school teachers. like seriously, they watched their students' performance and actually kinda competitive too- in a good way of course!

 see! they helped each other tau!

ko mampu terbang ala2 Superman giteww??

and i learnt quite a lot bout high jump rules and stuff.  Plus, the weather was kinda ok, sometimes, it was burning hot and sometimes it was pouring rain and sometimes it was just cloudy. no matter what, i think i love the experience that i got from this whole event!.

5000 m ... memang akak surrender

 it started to rain...

 injured...

oh ya, another thing that touched me was how this young chinese boy who looked like a Malay, actually made friend with a Malay boy and they kinda put hands on each other's shoulders and were so closed though they  just knew each other like seconds ago! cute as!

 this is my school flag. i think it was the most ancient flag on the field that week..huhu

and my school contigent- inculding the boy on the left.kang tak ngaku susah laks..

p/s:  I wish i could read minds. but it would be hurtful to know unpleasant things. but again, it would be satisfying to get to know what you want to know.. haha.

qwertyuiop

Salam.

currently doing my job as co-curriculum assistant secretary.
retyping thousands of students' names for their attendance lists.
if i could manage typing more than half clubs within tonight, i would treat myself to something.
note: One club approximately has 80 members. So 80 x 8clubs = 640 names in one night.
...i deserve something if i could do this...*sigh

p/s: I want to shop. many things to buy. or are they just my shopping addiction?

sleepy

Salam.

8 march

there are times when you look back, you feel like crying. 

i dont know why but lately ive been looking back to hundreds of pictures that i took in 2008-2010. 

and i also listened to some melancholic songs. i think i just missed my friends and my student's life. 

it felt like..something was lost.

smooth

as for tonight, i dont feel quite usual.. now i know how smooth one could be. and how dangerous could it be. and how warnings could be useful.

sound
i missed singing out loud and playing my guitar. it was out of tune and i hate that i could not even tune my own guitar. the sound was a total disaster. i really need someone who could tune it. 

well, someone near my house. :p.

things at school were becoming more interesting. 

YET, i am still struggling with my 4PD class. and the rest, i hope things will go smooth. I think, the boys and girls in the class were totally with high rising hormones. touching here and there, flirting and more (I heard these from a few teachers and some flirting scenes, i saw them myself).  however, there were still a quarter of them that wanted to learn. so, despite this kinda feeling that i have, i need to be strong to teach them. but i dont know how to win them over.

puppy love.
It was just funny when you learnt a few things bout your students' love life. it was kinda reminscing those school life that you had. so i had this form 4 male student, couple with a form 5 girl who actually combined their names in an email and carved it on surau's wall. and that didnt include those love dovey puppy love messages that they had in their handphones (other students). and living in a hostel, you also could make a few observations. I always went down to DM to kinda observe the students, before i ate. usually, the same faces were the ones late for dinner. those atheletic ones would eat a lot while tiny ones just had small portion of food. they dont quite like soupy vegetables but enjoyed fried vegetables. There was this one time, the boys played this weird game when he put a peanut in his friend's tea and his friend then did the same thing to him. i was like... what were you doing form 4 students??? cant you just eat n drink peacefully?!

kids lover
another scene, I was talking to a DM worker and then this one boy came with white bubbles on his left ear. The aunty then told him that he still had unwashed soap on his left ear. he was laughing out loud in embarrassment and went out to wash his ear. I was laughing too, it was funny. Like, you were form 6 but still...soap? then, makcik DM told me that the boy really loved kids. When the other mak ciks brought their small kids, he hugged them. and then that mak cik asked him whether he likes kids or not. So he answered, "kalau ada orang datang raya, bawak baby, saya mesti amik baby tuh dulu".  

hmmm, how cute and adorable is that?? :D

and that- their weird and (very few) loveable actions, 

are actually kinda joys that i have while living in the hostel.

oh ya, last monday, while i was teaching my 1c, suddenly this one boy called me..."teacher.." and showed me something. I couldnt help but laughed. i laughed coz it was soo random..he showed me a wired love shape- while the rest was writing a paragraph of essay.

and kelab pecinta alam sekitar
again, i was proposed to join this nature lovers' club. yes, i love nature but i dont quite enjoy camping activities. why? coz there is no proper toilet. and that is a big problem for me. T_T. They will have this jungle trekking and perhaps camping at Hutan Belum. Yes, Hutan Belum!!. Hutan memang hutan yang hutan. ko paham tak? T_T. i wanted to say no. but i dont have valid reasons. Plus, they were lack of female teachers. 

I like adventure but i hate places without proper toilet and i hate leeches and insects and darkness. but of course, i would take this as a challendge and a good experience (hoepfully it will be a good one..huhu).

and i am grateful with what i have
I cant say much bout this but having to see and be at a place that may not be as comfortable as you have, i would say that I would try to be more grateful with what i have. I should remember that there are people who are less fortunate than myself. and of course there are also those who are more fortunate but whatever it is, 

be grateful!

p/s: oh yeahh??

quickie

Salam.

dh nak balik tapi rasa tak nak balik.
rindu giler dekat wellington yang rasa nak menangis bila tengok balik gambar2.
tak sabar nak cuti and rasa nak g jenjalan tapi cuti kan sekejap sangat.

Suatu hari nanti, jika diizin ALLAH, aku nak pergi semula ke tempat aku belajar.
Korea pun sama. Insya ALLAH.

p/s: Seriously takdak mood untuk esok. cuma yang best ialah lagi lima hari untuk cuti panjang.
Harapnya tiada aktiviti tak best ketika cuti.

K bye. Salam! :)

full week

Salam.

hi. i think this is my 4th week in the school-kinda. wow, a month already. 

but this isnt practicum that i could cross the first month and wait to cross another 2 months in the calendar.

this is a real business. i might be teaching in here for years... 

so i stop counting as i dont know where to stop at.

Early morning. Student were just arrived. and the moon still could be seen.

Form 4 and i dont know how to treat these boys and girls.

So there it goes, nearly a month in the school. things are still so-so for me. except the fact that my classroom control for this one class has been blurghh. Form 4 students, second last class. very-very weak in english that even listening to me saying english words, they would sigh. Discipline problems as well. and some are rude. and THAT - rude, i could NOT except. I would rather  teach slow learners but know how to respect others rather than those who are 'low manners'.

I just dont know what kind of teacher should i be. authoritative? authoritarian? - not working.  They would just behave with this one particular teacher who taught them Perdagangan. The teacher is very strict and the students really scared to get low marks for the subject that they resorted to cheating. Sometimes, i felt powerless. I want to punish them but i could not slap or cane them. Not that i want to, but it seems like they only fear respect teacher who uses physical punishment. Slow talk? psychology? i think i have tried that. it works, but only for a few minutes. and now, i felt like not knowing what to do with them. how to touch their hearts when they dont even want to listen?

PIBG's meeting and there were lots of moms(where're the daddies?)

Last week, i started to feel like a career woman. lots of  meetings - PIBG, Kelab Guru, English Panel and PIBG again. argh. tiring. School starts at 730am and finishes at 240pm but when there's a meeting, it will probably end at 5pm. How about not eating rice from morning till 5? It is not that i am restricting myself from eating or whatsoever but i just dont feel like eating/lunch when i am at school except for breakfast. no appetite..huhu :(.  and yep, my school also had its first PIBG's meeting for 2011 last week. I was happy that the hall was packed with parents and i think only quarter of it were teachers. and it was good to see that lots of parents actually came to the meeting and participated in the discussion. eventhough most of them worked as farmers, labourers, etc, they actually came and care for their kids' education. Plus, they appreciate, respect and thank the teachers- those who educate their sons and daughters.

I could not help to compare the same situation with some urban schools (i said 'some'). Would the parents who are very busy with their careers, spend their time for a 3-hours meeting? would they support the teachers and thank them? would they allow the teachers to cane or pinch their children when they misbehaved? some would and of course, some would not. urban school parents could afford tuition classes for their kids but for my students, their parents depend on school to do extra classes and everything. they need the teachers but do the students appreciate both parents and teachers' efforts? and that, i am not so sure.

Boys' dorms. urgghh

last monday, 28th Feb, i helped the other wardens to run a spotcheck to male students. So during prep time, while i was actually marking papers and watching Gemilang, I went down and then up to their dorms. kinda an exciting thing to do lah. like a treasure hunt. you search for things that they hid. a handphone in the cushion, poker cards and even Mekah eyeliner. and that was the first time i saw one- a silver bottle of Mekah eyeliner in a boy's locker. and 4 dorms, 4 different unpleasant smell. only 1 dorm was quite clean and the rest were like wekkk..huhu. actually i expected to find some love letters or something fascinating but nah... they were pretty good at hiding them i guess. 

  Bags, pails and shoes should not be put inside the dorm. So they need to pay 50cents for each item.

this is the dorm leader's locker..hadoiii...

It was dark and the car swirled to the left

Last Thurday, 3rd MArch, my  roomate received a phone call from the head warden. It was around 9 to 10 pm. We were shocked to hear that one of our roomated, kak H, was involved in a car accident. So we went to the scene and tried to console her. 

She was on her way to send some students (the school handball team) to the hostels (they just got back from a handball tournament). So it was dark (mind you, the road was narrow, no lights, and bendang at left and right), they were so exhausted (from morning till night- playing) and my friend, she rarely drove at night. Long story short, at this one particular area, there was flood. but who would expect that right? no 'danger' sign or what so ever. and pufff.... her not even one year old saga car was swirled to the left and sank in the water (air bendang). Alhamdulillah, she and the students were all save but her car, err... i am not quite sure. Many said that syukur that she didnt swirl to the right coz if she did, they dont think they would be so lucky. the right side of the road was the tali air. very deep like a river or was it a river? i dont know.. and the next day, an issue was raised about students' safety. Teachers wanted the school to rent a school bus as to bring the students out and not the teachers. and i dont think that would happen anytime soon. Melayu mudah lupa kannn...  

This was captured using phone camera (hence the quality). 

So if you could see it, you would realise that the car was in a pool of water.. :(

Sport officer

yes. next week, from Tuesday till Thursday, from am to pm, i would be away to SK Titi Gantong, Bota to be the sport officer for high jump. and i was kinda like whhaatt? motipppp?? i dont even know the sport and i dont even have a transport to go there. but as a new teacher, of course I cannot say "ala, itamlah saya nanti bawah panas tak diva lah uolss". so pergi jelah nanti. This monday, after school hours, there'll be a briefing to all sport officers. and Tuesday, there'll be a gathering for all the admins, wardens and hostel students at Teluk Intan for dinner... i was invited though i am not a warden yet. But with the sport thingy happening, i dont think i could make it :(.... baru ingat nak g Teluk Intan. tak pernah lagi ok pergi sana since kecik2 dulu. 

p/s: I really need some tips on how to handle these form 4 students of mine. Sometimes i felt half-hearted to teach a few of them coz they were rude but i know, i am the teacher so i need to do something. but how?