The first time I heard this song, I thought Najwa was saying, "Kacang tua, Kacang dalam...."
and I was like.... how does that relate to smiling??
Kacak luar
Kacak dalam
Kacak dengar sini
Kalau saya senyum
Awak mesti senyum sekali
Ay cantik luar
Cantik dalam
Cantik dengar sini
Kalau cantik senyum, cantik mesti cantik lagi
Senyum sikit nak tengok ada tak lesung pipit
Kalau tak ada pun aku masih mahu cubit
Suatu hari, perbualan antara adik aku dan Cik X di kaunter dot dot dot, Ipoh...
Cik X : Kakak awak mengajar dekat mana?
Adik : Seberang P..
Cik X : Oh, first2 posting dah dapat situ eh??
Adik : ha'a
Cik X : Habis tu dia pergi sekolah kena naik bot la ye?
tak lah...akak g sekolah naik gajah je uolssss....
Right, aku tahu nama Seberang P... tak popular
and nama 'Seberang', macam tepi sungai gitewww...(tapi memang tepi Sungai Perak pun)
but aku tak naik bot lahhhh....
I used to be a super hardworking, completing all works given prior the datelines, never late kinda girl.
and all that nice things were gone baby gone!
I am no longer that person that i used to be.
Like an ice that has melted.
I guess I didnt really stay in the fridge.
I moved a lot and found sun and heat.
One news can either make ur day or ruin it.
in my case, i felt more negative energy than its positivity.
i try to act cool, trying not to really think about it
and just go with the flow..accepting it as it is
but i cant lie to myself.
automatically, i have no mood to do anything.
like someone from the street took your boyfriend away
and you try to look at the bright side
trying to find 5 reasons to accept the fact that you are now boyfriend-less
such as: he was not meant for me
such as: maybe i would find someone better
such as: I deserve better.
such as: his shoes are blue and not pink
such as: i am hot, young and gojes ??? - so it is his lost.
but in your heart, you would feel weird, not knowing what to expect,
and unhappy.
yes, one day, you would get to know someone
but it is kinda irritating to have to get started all over again
the same friendly smile that you ought to wear,
the same yes, yes, yes...
the same worries, adaptation and everything.
man, im really not happy for i dont know why.
..why this news strikes me hard.
tell me that i am normal.
“…Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”
(Al-Baqarah 2:216)
p/s: now i know how kids felt when they had to move from place to place, from school to school.. pps: please dont ask me why. and this aint about love.
It was a last minute plan that i enjoyed every second of it.
yeah, I went to Genting with brothers.
Twas fun. though most of the time spent there was for queueing up, waiting and so forth.
Kat sini lah aku belajar erti kesabaran. Sampai ada yang potong Q dan bikin panas.
Mujur bila aku bergambar, aku kembali rasa cool dan automatik senyum.
everything was good. but the weather was sometimes cold, then hot, then foggy then ok.
plus with empty tummy, berangin some more, = headache lah wehh.
but it didnt stop me from screwing up my head with all those actions and fun.
letak si loya di tengah. kalau aku muntah memang setiap orang merasa.
while queueing up for space shot, I had a little imagination and giggled.
why? coz i was imagining myself puking while the thing was lifting us up.
so the puke would be my breakfast : plain water that i drank with panadol.
So from the top, it would be like raindrops. and i would be famous.
well, of course i shared this thought with my lil bro.
he said, "dont walk alongside me if that happens".
Fortunately, I didnt vomit.
Straightly after that, I ate and sang.
and totally forgot bout school n work.
kat sini lah aku nyanyi lagu ikan kaloi feeling2 bawang merah.
Sedang aku sembang dengan kawan abah dan mak di ruang tamu,
pelbagai topik dibukak..
alih-alih sedang rancak, pak cik tuh cakap tentang satu program TV,
dengan yakinnya disebut,
"nasi lemak teh tarik"
memang comel...tapi seriously,
tolong ajar aku macam mana nak control ketawa?
image : from google image
p/s: a pleasant surprise from mom and dad. thank you xxoxoxoxo ! :)
Pikir ke tak pikir ke,
mungkin tetap tidak memberi apa-apa kesan.
Risau ke, riang ke, ... tidak beri apa-apa kesan jugak.
Jadi, tak perlu pening-pening pikir, just percaya yang setiap yang berlaku,
telah ditentukan oleh-NYA, ada hikmah tersendiri. ALLAH Maha Mengetahui.
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teringat kisah di kursus guru baharu..
Ustaz ni bercerita tentang kisah dia semasa sedang sidai pakaian di rumah..
isteri dia tak sihat so dia pun sidai baju kat luar sambil diperhati oleh jiran..
mak cik : wah wah walewah ustaz.... dengar kate orang rumah sakit?
ustaz : iye.
mak cik: habis tu, kenapa ustaz jemur kain senyum aje?
ustaz : mak cik, kalau saya masam pun, boleh sihat ke isteri saya?
wahhhhh..haha. kena kau sedas. pergi jolok sarang tebuan awal-awal pagi sapa suruh kannnn....
tapi, ada logik cerita ustaz ni.
kalau masam muka sekalipun, boleh sihat ke orang nya?
boleh selesai ke masalah?
at least, bila senyum, orang lain tengok pon sejuklah jugak hati.
ok, mengaku...
cerita nih untuk aku sendiri.
yang memang muka serius jarang senyum.
itu pakat takde problem hati girang punya situasi.
kalau muka time ada problem, busy, focus and sewaktu dengannya,
memang ala-ala muncung panjang leyh sangkut hanger gitewww...
*sigh
Sometimes, people imagining themselves being famous artists. Living a glamourous life, full of gossips and being known by people all around the nation. But time will come when they realise that a glamourous life isnt what they want. a gossip isnt how they want to be known. and life of an artist isnt as pretty and cool as it is portrayed.
because after all, fame sometimes kills all the fun.
p/s: doesnt need a famous soul to say that. doesnt a genius to understand this.
Seems like everybody's got a price,
I wonder how they sleep at night.
When the sale comes first,
And the truth comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and
Smile
Why is everybody so serious
Acting so damn mysterious
Got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can't even have a good time
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
We're paying with love tonight
It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance, Forget about the Price Tag
Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Chang Cha-Chang.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Blang Ba-Blang
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.
Okay!
We need to take it back in time,
When music made us all unite
And it wasn't low blows and video hoes,
Am I the only one getting tired
Why is everybody so obsessed
Money can't buy us happiness Can we all slow down and enjoy right now
Guarantee we'll be feeling Alright.
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
We're paying with love tonight
It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag
Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Chang Cha-Chang.
oh, my Malaysia Convo day! a happy day indeed! i have my besties, and my family except my second elder brother. he couldnt come :(
it was just weird.
when i was small, ive been dreaming and believing that someday, i would be wearing this robe and accepting this scroll and holding on to my degree.
I was 15 when i had my first mini graduation day at MJSC Gerik..(haha..muka tak puas hati jerr..)
My second mini Grad-Day. I was sweet 17 gitewwww...lol
and Alhamdulillah, after all these 6 years, hundreds of assignments, sleep deprivation, laughters and hardship, that day finally came true!
thanks to my mak, abah, abang2, adik, family members, teachers, lecturers, besties, friends and all for your support, love, care and everything!
I love you all ! :)
p/s: this is so short. it only mentions 3% of what i actually want to say. :D
