Ramadhan 1
Alhamdulillah.
1 rungkaian dari beribu soalan untuk kisah 3 tahun lepas. Syukur ya Allah kerana dengan izin-Mu aku mampu tenang dan husnudzon.
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Ya Allah, daku mohon kekuatan, kebijaksanaan dan ketenangan hati, jiwa dan fikiran agar aku mampu redha, mampu memahami hikmah dan mampu menjadi yg terbaik kerana-Mu.
Muharikah:
MERAIH KEBERKATAN WAKTU DENGAN MEMBACA AL-QURAN
Seorang guru yang berpesan kepada anak muridnya :
"Jangan engkau tinggalkan membaca Al-Quran, semakin banyak engkau membacanya, engkau akan mendapati urusanmu akan bertambah mudah".
Lalu anak murid itu mengikut apa yang dinasihatkan oleh gurunya, pada permulaannya dia mampu membaca 3 juz Al-Quran sehari,
Lalu dari hari kehari, jumlah helaian yang mampu dibacanya bertambah, dan dia mendapati urusannya semakin dimudahkan oleh Allah,
Kemudian dia bertanya kepada gurunya "wahai guruku, aku mendapati jumlah helaian Al-Quran yang mampu aku baca semakin meningkat, sedangkan aku seorang yang sibuk dengan kerjaku"
Maka gurunya berkata "waktu seharianmu menjadi berkah, kerana banyaknya engkau membaca Al-Quran, engkau terasa seakan-akan mampu melakukan banyak urusanmu walaupun hanya waktu yang singkat.."
Subahanallah
Melalui kisah tadi sudah membuktikan bahawa, apabila kita membaca Al-Quran waktu kita menjadi lebih berkah.
Secara logiknya, bila kita membaca banyak helaian al-quran, ia akan mengambil masa yang lama bukan??
Mesti hanya sedikit waktu yang berbaki, sehingga kita hanya mampu melakukan hanya sedikit urusan lain, tetapi,
Semakin banyak al-Quran kita baca, kita akan mendapati semakin banyak pula urusan yang mampu kita lakukan.
Bukan kerana waktu 24 jam itu bertambah, tetapi kerana berkahnya waktu, dan kerana urusan kita dipermudahkan oleh Allah Sang Penjaga masa kita.
Rasulullah saw bersabda;
"Barangsiapa yang bangun di pagi hari, dan hanya dunia yang difikirkan olehnya, sehingga seolah-olah ia tidak melihat hak Allah keatas dirinya, maka Allah akan menanamkan 4 penyakit padanya;
1- Kebingungan yang tiada putusnya.
2- Kesibukan yang tidak ada hujungnya.
3- Keperluan yang tidak pernah merasa cukup.
4- Angan-angan yang tiada penghujungnya.
(HR MUSLIM)
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Ubati hati mu yang letih dengan istighfar dan taubat.
Tanda hati letih bila ada rasa bosan, malas, jemu, kosong, lalai dan mudah kecewa.
Hati itu sudah penat dalam mujahadah yang selalu kalah tetapi tetap tidak mengalah.
Hati yang apabila melakukan ketaatan tidak ada kenikmatan dan apabila melakukan kemaksiatan sentiasa diburu keresahan.
Bila hati letih itu petanda hati mu digamit oleh Allah untuk kembali kepada Al Quran.
Ust Pahrol Juoi
My body reacted differently to stress or disappointment.
It could be too much crying,
Too much shopping
Too much sleeping
Too much comfort eating
Too much melody
Too much poems and melancholy
And too much of nothing.
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These need to stop.
And i need to go back to basic.
Of examining my heart and soul.
"Shaytan works by exploiting our own weaknesses and attachments. If we have trouble with tawakul (reliance on God), he will exploit our lack of firm footing, to make us constantly hesitant and afraid of the unknown. He will bombard us with irrational fears. He uses our chains against us. But we create those chains, thru our need for control. The greatest shield against shaytan is tawakul. It gives him nothing to chain us with. Tawakul frees us from ourselves and the bondage of fear. The bondage of shaytan."
Yasmin Mogahed
I could sense that my time with my parents especially my mom is getting shorter and shorter.
I miss her and i would easily cry when i think of her. Sometimes when she sleeps, i gaze at her. Sometimes when she's standing in the kitchen, cutting the vegetables, i would sneak a look at her. Sometimes when she eats, i would sit and admire her face, and herself, enjoying simple dishes on plate. I noticed her tired body and decreasing energy. The woman who gv birth to me and raise me up and still care for me. I feel so bad for not helping her out much.
O Allah, how much time do i hv in this world?
I plea to You dear Lord..not to end mine nor her(and father) until i could repay their kindness, loves, cares and endless sacrifices to the point that they could feel comfort and grateful to You for having a daughter like me. And to the point that they could be one of the reasons for me to be able to get into Your jannah with them.
2 situasi yang mungkin adalah terakhir tapi bersyukur masih ada saat berikutnya.. :
1. Lokasi: PHL ipoh. Lepas tgk jualan gudang the store. Aku cross jalan lepas toleh kiri kanan kiri.. dan tiba2 muncul lori laju di selekoh.
Lori berhenti mngejut betul2 sedepa dari aku.
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Memang betul mcm dalam drama. Klau org kene langgar, dia memang terpaku kat tengah jalan.. tak sempat lari or elak (dulu selalu cakap...awatlah mangsa tak mengelak..awatlah duk diam tgh jalan situ klo dh nmpk kereta..lol..). Tapi bila dah kena sendiri, baru faham maksud 'terpana'.
2. Lokasi: perth, australia.
Aku, dan 3 member memandu sendiri sepanjang berada di perth. Lesen didaftarkan atas nama member aku..dan aku sebagai navigator di sebelah driver. Masa tu malam kat traffic light simpang empat. Kami nak masuk kanan. Lampu traffic pun dh hijau. So, beloklah kami ke kanan dgn yakin dan tiba2 datang taxi dari arah hadapan kanan jalan laju.
Dua2 kereta brake mengejut. Jarak antara aku dan taxi hanyalah beberapa inci. Kalau kami berhenti dan taxi tu memecut, maka hentaman pertama adalah pada side aku.
Terkejut..tapi aku cuba bertenang. Itu baru malam pertama. Kalau aku panik, squad percutian akan turut terasa.
Peraturan lalu lintas di australia ialah utk mengutamakan kenderaan kanan. Meaning, kalau dua2 bahagian traffic lampu hijau, haruslah beri laluan pada kenderaan di kanan.
Peluang kedua untuk belajar dan selamat. Alhamdulillah.
Malam 30 Ramadhan
Mesjid AnNur.
Tadi blackout tiba-tiba.
ada yg terjerit.
ada yg termelatah.
aku agak blur.
tapi selepas seketika, aku suka.
Malap.
Hanya wrna putih telekung yang samar kelihatan,
Hanya sayup suara bilal tnpa mic yang kedengaran,
tiada kipas berbunyi.
Semua persis 4 pagi sepi.
Oh, tapi cuma sebentar.
Selepas kiraan 10 kurang lebih,
Semua terang kembali.
Terus disambut Alhamdulillah.
Ps. Kamu tidak putus dalam doa.
Bila kau tiada lagi masa,
Untuk buat segala yang dulu kau biasa,
Sendiri perlu tahu, ini hanya rasa atau mampu membinasa?
Mana pergi berkat masa.
Mana pergi berkat rasa.
Kau tahu Tuhan ada.
Tapi kau sendiri malas mendekati NYA.
Jarak antara kening dan sejadah kau ambil mudah.
Bicara antara mulut dan tadahan tgn kau pandang biasa.
Kitab suci kau buka sekali sekala.
Basahan lidah dgn pujian pada-NYA jarang ada.
Lalu kau bertanya,
Kenapa kau masih bergelumang dosa,
Bersalut duka nestapa,
Berfikir kerisauan dunia.
Hati tahu jawapannya.
Tapi badan masih keras berat dan malas.
Petaka apakah yg lebih malang selain qolbu yg mati?
Tuhan,
Aku hamba hina,
Tahu punya banyak dosa,
Tapi masih mahu meminta,
Semua perkara dalam dunia,
Dan semua yang kekal di sana.
Tuhan,
Aku hamba hina,
Tahu punya banyak cela,
Tapi masih mahu meminta,
Diampun dosa, dikurnia syurga.
Tuhan,
Aku hamba hina,
Tahu punya iman tak setinggi mereka,
Tapi masih mahu meminta,
Istiqamahkan aku dalam taqwa.
Tuhan,
Aku hamba hina,
Tahu punya hati gelap tiada warna,
Tapi masih mahu meminta,
Sucikanlah ia dengan salju penghilang nista.
Tuhan,
Aku hamba hina,
Sering hilang punca cahaya,
Tapi masih mahu meminta,
Ihdinas sirootol mustaqeem, padaMu yang Maha Esa.
Tuhan,
Aku hamba hina,
Cetek perwatakan wanita syurga,
Tapi masih mahu meminta,
Kuatkan daku nanti sebagai isteri solehah, ibu sempurna,
Untuk jodohku di dunia dan di syurga,
Serta zuriat keturunan bertaqwa.
Tuhan,
Aku hamba hina,
Dengan hati bolak balik penuh dosa,
Turun naik imanku seperti nafas kencang hentinya tiada,
Tapi Tuhan, aku tahu selangkah aku menghampiriMu,
Rahmat dan kasih sayangMu hadir berganda,
KeampunanMu sentiasa terbuka,
Buat aku, hamba pendosa.
Rayuku padaMu Tuhan,
Jangan tinggalkan aku walau seketika.
Walau sekelip mata.
Walau nafas sehela.
Walau lebih sekejap dari keduanya.
Kerna aku hanya punya Engkau,
Allahu Ahad.
If i were to choose between listening and talking..i would choose to listen.
I love stories. I love smiling and be happy for other people's happy moments. I love the positive vibes of true human experiences; of courage, survival, spiritual journey and self enhancement. I could be the one who lend attentive ears for others too. I might not utter the correct comforting words or giving a precise motivational speech at that moment but i could give a warm hug i guess.
But that doesnt mean i am totally reserved.
...doesnt mean i dont want to be listened to..
...doesnt mean i have nothing to say, ideas to discuss or feelings to share.
It is just that, people might be selective.. to whom they want to be listened to.
And comfortable to share things with..
Be that person.
:)
Monday.
530am. Breakfast before heading to #sp
Mom said.
"Bila sara dah kawen ada suami, anak, buat macam apa yg mak buat"
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I doubt myself i could do as perfect and patient as hers. 😔 but mom, i'll try my best.. that, i can promise you.
Ps. TakuT. Dan .LelaH.
January 2016 challenges:
-not to post any negative thoughts in any of my social media. Surrounding myself with good vibe and sharing positivities with others.
-to consistently go to mesjid for maghrib and isyak + takzirah (at least once a week).
- to jog/exercise at least once a week.
So far im gonna aim for these threenuary first. Of course there are other aims too but im setting a month time frame for threenuary.
May Allah ease.
2015.
I cried a lot this year.
Months.
Half year.
Throughout the year.
No hatred.
Just sadness and lots of questions.
Kadang aku terfikir.
Apa yg mampu membuatkan kita gembira..
Apa yang bisa membuat kita sedih..
Adakah ia cerminan iman?
Kalau tangisan itu jatuhnya kerana kehilangan yang kecil,
Kerana patahnya hati,
Kerana banyaknya urusan dunia..
Adakah itu petanda hati penuh keduniaan?
Sedangkan mereka yg lain bersengkang mata,
Berkolam air mata,
Bermandi peluh dan keringat,
Resah gelisah, berduka lara kerna
memikirkan urusan di 'sana'
Bekalan di dada dan ibadah.
Juga kerna sebak dek saudara seislam berbantal batu dan berselimut pelukan lengan.
Lihatlah sendiri.
Hati kau masih kecil.
Halus.
Lekas rabak.
Banyak tangis dan tawa kerna dunia.
Koreksi diri.
Kalau apa yang kau buat tak mampu halang kau dari kejahatan dan dosa..
Apa sebenarnya yang berlaku?
Apa sebenarnya yang kau lakukan sehingga tak laku di sisi NYA?
😢😢😢😢
Rindu waktu itu ya Tuhan.
ALLAH.. ampuni dosa lalu.
Mampukan daku untuk suka segala yang Engkau suka..
Mampukan daku untuk utamakan MU, Ya ALLAH dalam segala perkara..
He envies her to the fact that she could meet her parents every weekend..
Little that he knows, she envies him for getting to meet his own little family every time he returns home, everyday..
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Each and every one of us has their own rezq though at times, all we see is that the grass is always greener from the other side of the fence. We might have rezq that other people do not have and vice versa. Same goes with difficulties or adversities. Who r we to say that other people are more blessed than us or have less responsibilities/ difficulties/adversities than us?
Lets be thankful.
Be grateful for everything that we have.
Work hard, pray earnestly and give more as to achieve what we think we should have OR want to have OR need to have.
Stop labelling each other as "having less responsibilities" OR "more blessed" OR "having no problems" etc. What we see from the surface (their smiles, laughters, happiness, etc) might not really show the struggles inside their heart and mind.
Sometimes we couldn't have everything. But all the things that we have..are more than enough for us.
And stms, we could have everything. But it is just not there yet for us. It also depends on how do we define 'everything'.
Be grateful for everything that we have. For when we lose even one slight nikmat from the many of them that HE has bestowed upon us, only then we would realize that we have everything that HE wants us to have; and they are sufficient for us.
Im not reminding this to anyone except my own self.
Sometimes i compared myself with other people in a negative way. And of course, it should not happen like that. If comparison is made, it should be as a motivation to achieve and do better, positively.
This is indeed a reminder to myself. Yes, i remind myself by writing my thoughts; one of the ways, of course.
P/s: happy malaysia day. #160915wednesday.
It is now 3.59pm..same time on 160914 tuesday; i was in festival city, hunting for my graduation shoes, after leaving sime darby convention centre with a happy and content feeling. Little that i know... 😔😢
Kehilangan
Itu yang menyedihkan.
Tak kisahlah hilang apa.
Barang mahupun cinta.
Cinta siapa? Itu kau jawab sendiri.
Paling parah jika hilang cinta agung.
Itu kau bakal hilang segalanya.
Ps: ah..menangis pula.
Hati tak sado.
Dah bilang acapkali supaya kental.
Tapi rupanya seperti span.
Serap semua.
...dan bila ditekan, menitis laju.
They said, to forget certain things,
remember all the bad things.
So hatred would build up, erasing things that you have got to forget.
But how could you forget,
when everything is good.
You know, it was like in a drama,
when a mother or a wife was praying and then reciting some zikr using the tasbeh and then.... pufff!
That suspense or sad background music came in...
Tasbeh terputus
The beads were everywhere
And uve got that bad feelings.
Huhuhu...
Rasa nak nangis pulak. Ala2 dramatic..
I need a new tasbeh. That was a tasbeh given by my friend last 2 years i think. And now..dah terputus 😣
And that sejadah/ prayer mat was given by my ex principal whom ive just had a chance of working with him for 3 months. He gave a sejadah to every staff on his retirement day. That was in 2011.
And im still using it til now.
#nw malaikat hafazah #cintailmudanfalsafah
Ive first heard the term 'kiroman katibin' from my friend, I, in dec 2013.
He said that before we sleep, we could make niat, and ask kiroman katibin to wake us up at a certain time (with Allah's will).
Kiroman katibin are the angels on our right and left shoulders who keep tracks and records of our good deeds and bad ones..
So that night, i made a niat to wake up at 6am. In that niat, i mentioned kiroman katibin, and i mentioned with the wills of ALLAH too.. and Alhamdulillah, the next morning, i woke up around 6am..to be exact, 5.55am, without alarm clock.
Tq I for sharing the 'ilm with me. Uve got ur 'share' for akhirah, in sya Allah...
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And ive also learnt that if we recite quranic verses/surah and some zikir before we sleep, and also make a strong, sincere and specific niat to wake up early (for example; O Allah, please wake me up at the last phase of the night so i could submit myself to YOU..), in sya Allah, HE would wake us up early.
p/s: it s my birthday today. Alhamdulillah.. ☺😊 #tuesday
22082015
Saturday
Met with a friendly makcik at An Nur mesjd. She was not from the neighbourhood though.
We had a chat here and there in between the ceramah. She was actually on her way back home to silibin after teaching fardhu ain, etc at Seri Kenangan (an old folks home). But it was raining heavily before Maghrib and the road that she normally used was flooded. So she had to use an alternative route, which had brought her to An-Nur mesjid. She repeatitively mentioned how grateful she was for having the opportunity to solat there and listened to the talk by our guest speaker, Dr Azlan on mukmin sejati (Surah al-Mu'minun; 1-11).. ☺
After the talk, we performed Isyak prayer side by side. And soon after we finished the prayer with du'a, etc,.. she tegur me in a humble and kind way (like a mother to her daughter); she said that when performing congregational prayers (jamaah prayers), makmum could not prolong the final sujood any longer than the imam.
In my very limited knowledge and 'ilm, especially in fiqh (please correct me if im wrong) ;
I've learnt from ustaz(ah) that in jamaah prayers, makmum could prolong the final sujood as long as the imam has not yet recited the syahadah OR maximum, the solawat onto Nabi Muhammad SAW in tahiyyat akhir (meaning, you can prolong your sujood BUT not for TOO long). The best is to prolong your sujood when you perform prayers individually..
But i didnt say anything back to her bout that. I smiled and sincerely thanking her for telling me that. Having a makcik whom ive just met for perhaps an hour, and had actually 'corrected' me on that, was something im grateful for. That simply shows she cares about me. Alhamdulillah..
Makcik S, hope we could meet again, In sya Allah.. Thank you for your kindness and may Allah bless you, and all of us 😊
For further explanation on 'could makmum prolong their sujood?'; click the link below...
Dalam banyak kisah,
Memang kita yang bersalah
Terlalu kaku dan malu untuk mengolah.
Tapi tiap salah yang disambut diam,
dan tiap guris yang dipendam,
Mana mungkin minda faham,
Mana mampu hati ini hadam.
Walau itu yang kadang kita lakukan,
Bicara awal kadang disambut kata
Walau sepatah tapi bisa berbunga jiwa.
Kata nasihat berhikmah itu penguat.
Penguat buat apa yang telah tertambat.
Nasihat yang berhikmah. Yang padanya tiada marah dan tiada kata pelemah.
Mendengar pada pengalaman mereka.
Yang padanya ada kejujuran rasa dan keikhlasan cerita.
Nasihat mereka masih bergema.
"Sudah tarafnya kita seorang hamba, selayaknya diuji oleh DIA.."
Sel dalam otak berhubung segera dengan janji TUHAN (al-Baqarah; 286)... bahawa DIA tidak akan uji kita dengan ujian yang tidak mampu kita hadapi.
Bila kali terakhir kita bersyukur kerana diuji?
Soal aku kepada aku..
R.E.D.H.A...
5 huruf,1 perkataan.
Tapi sejauh mana keikhlasan, perlaksanaan dan penerimaan?
Adakah bila bersedih,
terkenang dan bergenang, menunjukkan seseorang itu tidak redha?
Ya Rabb,
Kurniakan kami hati yang redha atas segala ketentuan-MU.
Sesungguhnya Engkau lah yang Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Menentukan..
