Hakikat

Aku sering membayangkan bahawa hati adalah satu ruang kosong yang perlu diisi, 

samada dengan air atau minyak, 

atau kebiasaannya, manusia hina seperti aku, ada kedua-duanya. 

...yang mana keduanya tidak bercampur tapi masing2 cuba mengambil ruang yang ada.

jika hati terisi lebih dengan air, maka ruangan untuk minyak akan berkurang. 

jika terisi lebih dengan minyak, maka ruangan air menjadi sedikit. 

air diibaratkan sebagai sesuatu yang menyihatkan

.. memberi tenaga, punya unsur membersih. 

jika ditambah usaha, mampu menyingkirkan lebihan minyak, 

lantas memperoleh ruangan lebih di dalam hati.

minyak pula, 

sedikit sebanyak perlu..

 tapi jika terlalu banyak, memberi mudarat.. 

dan jika dibiar lama, akan menjadi lemak, membawa penyakit dan menyempitkan ruangan hati.

Setiap kali hati terisi lebih dengan dunia (minyak),

 maka ruangan untuk akhirat (air) akan berkurang.

setiap kali kurang siraman air pada hati, 

setiap kali itulah, minyak mengambil ruangan itu. 

dan jika berterusan, 

minyak bertukar jadi lemak... 

dan akhirnya menyumbat hati sendiri hingga sukar dimasuki air.

aku takut.

takut ruangan untuk air makin berkurang kerna ralitnya hati dimasuki minyak..

...sedangkan aku tahu pentingnya air untuk menyuburkan hati.

Auggie

Hi AUGUST!
I love you so much last year.
I love how you make me felt last year.
Be good to me this year too, ya..
Or at least, let me be spiritually and mentally stronger than previous months!

😊

Kerana DIA juga bisa membuka kunci

Salam.


pantas jemari mengimbau
selakan demi selakan
satu persatu diperhati kaku
benar kaku.
keras tanpa belas.

teriak mata
membaca mantra
namun tewas.
habis juraian mutiara
melimpah dari takungan ikhlas.

sebak
puas telapak tangan menutup degup
konon hati mampu dipangku
rebah jua dalam hela nafas.

lalu dalam getar menahan rasa
bibir berkumat perlahan
kalimah Tuhan Maha Agung
disebut acap kali
bersulam nafas sebak,
berteman titisan jernih kolam mata.

****

Duhai sayang,
dalam indah dan tribulasi,
carilah DIA, Tuhan yang memegang hati.

Salam.

10 syawal
10 hari selepas peninggalan Ramadhan.
apa yang masih kita kekalkan?
apa yang telah kita tinggalkan?
apa yang terkesan di sanubari kita, kawan?

Hidup boleh berubah dalam sekelip mata.
Dan sekelip mata itulah yang kita khuatiri.

Tanpa persediaan, bagaimana mampu bertahan?

TUHAN.
Itulah awal. akhir dan selamanya.

Weirdo

Ramadhan 21 #iftaarwithhostelstudents #7july2015

I learn that sometimes tragedy does not only happen in drama or novel. It happens to people around us too. So be grateful with the life that we have.
Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.

Persons we called 'weirdo' stms have their own 'history'. And they are also blessed with unique abilities. Like miss I, she is gifted with fast memorization (though she was known as a lone ranger, garang and 'weird').

Just because we dont see people doing it much, doesnt make it weird. Unless it is totally and morally wrong, and against our religion.

Qolbu

Qolbu

Berubah ubah.

Enak kita memperkatakan hilangnya kewarasan seorang ibu tatkala dia mendera bayinya persis boneka hidup. -"gila!" Kata kita.

Seronok kite mempersoalkan ke mana hilangnya kejujuran seorang insan bila di sua setempayan kekayaan.-"tamak!" Kata kita

Ketawa mengilai kita melihat seorang gadis menangis mengekspresi emosi pabila ditipu sang arjuna buaya -"padan muka!" Kata kita.

Bukankah segala kata negatif itu lebih baik digantikan dengan doa tanpa henti dan permohonan perlindungan dari Ilahi, daripada melakukan kesilapan yang sama?

Kerna qolbu itu sifatnya tidak tetap.
Hari ini kau mungkin insan terbaik buat masyarakat..
Namun esok tatkala diuji..
Dan qolbumu memberontak lalu terpejam seketika,
Mungkin kaulah insan terhina di mata masyarakat.

Mohon pada NYA,
pada Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati...
Tetapkanlah hati ini pada jalan NYA.

Ps.
Hati. Aku suka bicara mengenainya.
Sudah bertahun lamanya bersama, tapi hanya sedikit yang aku fahami.

daughter

Salam.


Ramadhan 18, Sunday

i went quite late to Masjid An Nur for isyak and terawih,
but Alhamdulillah, i managed to squeeze into the mesjid (not the outside saf)
it was the last saf inside the mesjid, in between 2 little girls.
i felt like a mommy with two daughters. hehe.
and the girl on my right,
she performed all 8 rakaat of terawih + 3 rakaat of witir,
without complaining or having the urge to join other kids playing.
If she's my daughter, i would kiss her.
May you grow up to be a pious servant of ALLAH SWT, daughter, wife and mother.
(and may i have the chance to be one too, in sya ALLAH)

*******

Earlier, i met an unexpected person at aeon ipoh.
we stumbled upon each other and were kinda stunned.
i tried really hard to recognize his name, or at least, how i knew this familiar face.
"ok, this must be my primary school friend. but man! what's his name ya??"
*thinking...thinking*
until he then said, "teacher...sarah kan?"
*facepalm
it's my ex 5PD 2013 student!
my favourite class of the year (the funniest and hilarious class). hehe.
still, it was quite hard for me to recall his name until.... i got into the fitting room.
yes, his name is Aqil Amsyar!
i didnt forget u. and happy fasting :)

kelibat

Salam.

masih ingat bagaimana sekeping puisi di bulan Ramadhan mengukir senyuman sepenuh hati,
dan senyuman ke telinga itu juga yang kau tangisi,
kerna khuatir ia bakal bikin hati terisi lebih dengan dia berbanding DIA.
khuatir melalaikan, khuatir rasa itu bukan milik dirimu yang hakiki.
khuatir ia semua adalah sementara.

dan sementara itu yang terjadi.

Tuhan.
Ampuni kami semua yang sering alpa.
Tuhan,
Bantulah kami mencintai- MU melebihi diri kami,
keluarga kami dan air yang dingin.

Smile on her face

Her pencil case was torn, old and had lots of pen marks on it. It looked as if it was given by her elder siblings..or perhaps the one that she had used since years.

I noticed that few weeks ago. And it was few weeks ago that i told her to come and meet me after school..i wanted to give her a new pencil case; one that i bought at s.iskandar. sadly..she didnt come and see me.

So today, again. I told her to go to the staffroom and bring along her pencil case. This time, i walked with her. I asked a few things bout herself, just to get to know her more. She was really a quiet student. When i first taught her class last year, she even sulked with me when i asked her a question (on english language of course). She didnt look at me but just stared at the window blankly. She was not the kind of student who is rude but she is soo introvert and quiet; very different from her younger brother who is really talkative and her elder sister who is quite hot-tempered (with her classmates).

So i invited her to my table.
Then i gave her a new pencil case. She smiled.. a really sincere smile. Her eyes were smiling too. It was just a pencil case.. it was less than rm 10 but her smile was priceless.
I didnt really have a long chat with her coz another teacher might have entered her class. So before she went back to her class, she called me. I thought she just wanted to say thank you but she offered her hands, to salam/shake hands with me.

Alhamdulillah and thank you L for giving me the chance to do something good today.

I rarely write and share these kinda things in my blog. But the fact that i had shared it here today makes me feels even pumped up to do more. In sya Allah.

Please pray that i could always do better, more and beyond teaching. Somehow i think that it is not really them who need me. But im the one who need them, as a medium to do good. I need to instil 'ilmu yg bermanfaat' and do more 'sedeqah jariah'. Let it be small but continuously. May Allah safeguard me, and us all from being selfish and insincere.

#ramadhan1436/2015

Step

How can you ever forget,
...when all of em are happy memories?

Usik

Tika kau intai,
Saat itu hati terusik.
Mata berkaca,
Tunggu masa tumpah mencurah.

Tika itu,
Bisikkan kalimah Tuhan berulang kali.
Hingga hilang keterusikan menggila.

Ldr hubs n wives

Im amazed at how people could survive LDR after marriage..
I mean,away from spouse and perhaps their child(ren).
They r really strong, emotionally and spiritually.
It must be because of HIM.
'Bertemu dan berpisah(sementara) kerana Dia'.

Moga Allah SWT sentiasa berkati para isteri dan suami yang berkasih sayang kerana DIA.

Sin alif ya nga

Bila dah sayang,
Semuanya akan jadi lain macam.
Lahir 'hope'
Terbit 'expectation'
Mahu 'tahu' segala perihal
Terlebih 'ambil berat'
'Sakit' sana sini...
Keluar macam-macam rasa.
Rasa luar biasa.
Dan luar kebiasaan ini yang buat kita gelisah.

kau,
Ingatkanlah aku pada Pemegang Hati.
Agar aku bawa DIA dalam segala rasa.

Am i?

BBW

Went to the mines for book shopping at BBW. #030615 #wednesday.
My last BBW shopping was on december 2013.

When i was at seri kembangan,
My mind was else where.
All d driving and getting lost...
All d walking and carrying books..
Stepping up the stairs...
The indoor 'stream',
McDonalds,
Sections of books at BBW,
the crowd...
Every single detail...
My eyes started to get teary.

I needed distraction.
Though it felt right, ive gotta admit that i kinda came to the wrong place.

#rbtl

Salam.

I really really REALLY need to focus on improving myself.
... on reflecting things and have a good heart.

Chocs

went crazy over chocs.

The world is round

One of  my dreams is to travel the world.

I want to have this big globe and world map in my room, on my table..so i could see the world, mark the countries that ive been to and dream more of going to places.

Sebel

Dihukum dengan kesenyapan dunia,
Tertipu dengan kedaifan rasa.

Mana pergi hati yang kononnya mapan?

Tapi

Satu hal yang kau tak boleh paksa..

Perihal hati.

Perlu masa.
Perlu usaha.
Perlu doa.
Banyak banyak doa

Hati

Kalau dalam hati kau masih sedih kerna manusia,
Masih gusar kerna khuatir akan persepsi insan,
Di mana kau letakkan yang Maha Kuasa sebenarnya?

HATI
suka aku dengar bicara mengenainya.
Kerna semua pun tahu,
Sifat hati yang sering berubah-ubah.
Hari ini mungkin bilang ya.
Esok belum tentu masih ya.

Tangisan dari hati itu,
Puncanya dari apa wahai sang kerdil?

Lalu jawapan dibalas curahan air mata.
Setitis demi setitis tewas.
Turun dari mata ke pipi,

... ke kain putih yang ditadah dari tadi.

Curahan mutiara jernih itu,
detiknya dari sekeping hati yang hitam.

Benar sebenar-benarnya.
Hanya dengan mengingati Allah,
hati akan menjadi tenang.

Degup

Kawan aku.
Sering berkongsi kisah cintanya.
Bersama yang dahulu kekasih, kini isteri beranak lima.
Katanya,
Lelaki punya degup.
Serius aku ketawa.
Degup??
Lalu dia sambung..
"Serius ni wan sarah"...
Ok lah...
Explain...

Katanyaaaa...
Untuk jatuh suka dengan serius,
Harus ada rasa "degup" itu.

Itu kata dia.
Degup.

Dalam hati, aku terfikir...
Sudahnya... kalau ada yg berdegup 2,3,4 kali...
Pada insan yang berbeza
Bagaimana?

Ah.. terpacul pula soalan tadi pada dia.

"Sebab itulah lelaki ada yang kawen lebih..."

*senyap*

"Kak Susan...tengok cg Edward ni ha..macam ada niat nak bagi akak payung emas je ni..."

Pasangan ideal ini mmg dah biasa dgn gurauan poligami si suami.

Dan aku...sambung makan dengan tenang. Hahah.

********
#namarekaansemata

I got a friend whom always know how to start, what to say and could always put up with me; no matter what i say or how mad i could be.
And a good counsellor too.
Someone whom i could say, "hmm i feel sad.. Can u please say or share sth comforting.."
Then puff! All sorts of comforting ayat, words, jokes and motivations were there in less than a minute.
If she was a guy, I couldve fallen for him.

This one kakak.
She is pretty..a well-experienced teacher and a happy-go-lucky kinda person..senyum sokmo.
And cantik.
Yeah..i said pretty twice coz she is.

She is also quite known for her busy life (earning more and more money is one of the things she likes to do; as she said so).

So we asked her about her part-time job at this one private institution. She said she had quit.
And we asked why coz as i said, she loves the money.

"U know what, ...when i was younger, i love to chase money.. i want to earn more and more money. But after quite stms, it becomes tiring. And once uve experienced the death of a fam member, u will realize that u need to spend more time with ur family. I worked at xxxx every friday and returned home at night. The next day, i was too tired already. And my family demanded my time during weekend. So i quitted."

It makes me think.
What do i really want in life?
In my 20s..in my 30s and in my 40s....so on...(if Allah permits me to have a longer life)..
More money?
Higher academic qualification?
More kids? (if im blessed with a marriage and children)
Bigger house and luxurious car?

I want a blessed life.
Blessed with the love of Allah.

Soberness

Losing things that are near to your heart is indeed, devastating.
It leaves a deep mark,
a mark that only you and HE knows.

The heart is still beating,
Tears are still rolling,
Mind is still wondering.

True.
The heart should only be filled with the remembrance of the Most Gracious,
as only HIS love lasts forever.

p/s: months and 'soberness'.

Jendela salju

Jendela.
Betapa mahu kau ke sana.
Ke arah mana mata kau capai.
Tapi sayang.
Tertutup rapat, terkunci rapi.
Tiada mampu walau satu hembusan, walau satu bingkisan untuk masuk.
Hanya mampu intip dalam kelam,
...di celahan pemisah luar dan dalam.

🗻💐☕🌁 #010415 #wednesday #gststartstoday #ofapril14

IF you have known all my flaws and weaknesses,
..seen me in my worst, emotional conditions and situations,
Would u still like me?

bro-sis code

Salam.

i read an article on how Beckham's first child, Brooklyn cuddled and carried his 3 y/o sister home LOVINGLY, after the NYFW. and towards the end of the article, the reporter asked Beckham on how Harper's romantic relationship would be with you know, 3 protective elder brothers, so here he answered: 

"She's got three brothers that will take her, 

three brothers that will eat with her,

and three brothers that will bring her back home,

and a dad waiting for her," 

'So yeah, we'll see. That'll be interesting."

and i could more or less understand this.

the part on having 3 protective elder brothers (i have 4 bros), and... being the only daughter.

Like seriously, elder brothers are more protective towards their sister. 

doesnt matter whether the sister is pretty or not (tak 'ku putih ku putih' pun abang2 sayang..syukur..huhu), big or small...i guess it is in their genes.  

i am already an adult.. BUT.. my brothers' protectiveness level does not even decrease a bit. 

They know most of my circle of friends, BFFs and my whereabouts. 

They are my 'chauffeurs' esp in KL and my chaperons whenever they are at home or whenever i am in KL.
At times, they would escort/ drive me to SP at dawn (at 5.45 am), though they have just arrived from KL the night before; simply coz they are concerned that i would be driving alone/sleepy early at dawn.
and other times, we would keluar makan, movie, shopping blabla.
padahal buat sorang2 pun boleh. but when bros are there, we would do that together.

my first bro, he is the most protective.. and strict.
tambah2 when he's married and has a child. lagiiii lah protective and kebapaan.
he is the one who always asked and called me just to say 'hi' or ask bout my days etc.
there was this one time, i was sick and he took care of me. He came to my college late at night just to pass me Vicks and some meds coz i was coughing badly. Many times, he took me to the clinics and made sure i was ok (with the bless of ALLAH, of course).
he has that 'eldest child' charisma and a decision maker.

my second bro, ...i like the way he gives advices/ opinions. it is always lengthy and of course, useful. whenever im in need of opinions or suggestions, he is always there to help (until everything is solved!). For me, he is a sensible person. He also layan my narcissism by taking my photos..hehe.

and my third bro, he is a 'people' person.
He knows and has met most of my BFFs.
he is the most manja and the one i could mengada lebih.
I always ask him and his wife to go out etc.
He holds my hand- walaupun aku dh besar (and his wife's hand of course), when we crossed the road/ at crowded places.
He makes sure i eat early as to avoid tummy upset.
He holds my heavy handbag when i need to choose / shop for sth.
he still lies his head on my lap, stms asks me to picit kepala, kaki and lepak in my room (bilik aku sejuk) though he's married.
oh...at times, he bullies me too. u know, requesting this n that (mostly food).

and of course my lil bro.
hmm..ahaha. he is of course younger than me. and im closer to him actually.
i talk and share with him though he doesnt really give elaborate responses. lol.
he is a really good listener and a trustworthy secret keeper.
i love hugging him.. at random times.
i hold his arms when walking at malls, etc for no reason. ahahaha.
love teasing him esp when he sleeps and sits alone thinking of things, or even when he eats.
I drink his water just a sec after he finishes pouring it into the glass,..simply because!.
i dont know,... i just love to annoy him! :D

he is a man with less words but at times could be full of surprises too.

Like this one time, when we were in Jogja, he told me not to disperse from my friends (coz i prefer to shop alone). he reminded me few times on that. and then he kept on walking behind me at a crowded place to make sure i was safe. and there was one time, i joked about wanting this particular bag..and he bought me that bag! it was not that expensive or branded but it's the thought that impressed me the most!

but yeah,....
it is not always rainbows with bros.
we fought and bickered too.
we have some 'terasa hati' moments too.
they were times when i cried coz well obviously... i hati lembik cam kanji..huhu.
BUT, like other siblings,
we got over that..
i also appreciate all their countless sacrifices and concerns on me..
and for all the good and bad, i would NOT trade bros for anything. :)

Tolong ingatkan aku

Orang yang mudah lalai seperti aku..
Memang perlu kepada peringatan berulang kali tanpa jemu..
Peringatan dan nasihat berhikmah, agar aku mampu berubah,
dalam istiqamah.

In sya Allah.

Bolehkah kau hadapi

Salam

Kau tak tahu betapa jantung berdegup laju,
Fikiran melayang selalu,
Bila fikir perkara yang aku sendiri tak tahu,
...sama ada aku mampu.

Semahunya diri mahu jadi yang terbaik.
Tapi diri lebih kenali hati.
Banyak hitam dari putih suci.
Lalu mengundang pelbagai persoalan dalam diri.

Sudah ready,
untuk hadapi semua nanti?

Cinta ke syurga

Kalau cinta,
Sama-sama banyakkan doa.

Kalau benar cinta,
Sama-sama bawa ke syurga.

Barulah sama-sama elak derita,
Sama-sama kecap bahagia.

Ps: peringatan untuk diri.

Salam.

Bila sayang, kau akan husnudzon secara automatiknya. Default setting barangkali.

baiki diri

Salam.

Bila dapat kegembiraan, kita bersyukur.
tapi jarang kita bertanya "kenapa aku?".
Maka bila ditimpa kesukaran,
bersyukurlah kerana kita terpilih untuk ditarbiyah,
dan jangan persoal "kenapa aku?".
Status kita sebagai hamba NYA, buatkan kita lebih dari layak untuk diuji.
Dan untungnya kita, hamba hina tapi Tuhan sayang...
Bila diuji NYA,
DIA janjikan kita hanya diuji dengan ujian yang kita mampu hadapi.
DIA janjikan disetiap kesukaran ada jalan keluar,
DIA janjikan sesuatu yang lebih baik,
Kadang kita mungkin tak faham dan tak punya kebijaksanaan untuk melihat hikmah.
Tapi semestinya ujian dari DIA membuatkan kita lebih berfikir,
lebih bermuhasabah,
lebih banyak tangis, rayu dan berharap pada DIA.

ALLAH, daku sayang pada MU.
Ampuni daku, ampuni dia, ampuni kami semua.

p/s: Mohon masa diputarkan adalah mustahil. 
Yang termampu ialah untuk mengubah diri sendiri. 
Baiki diri dan bersihkan hati.  

Fear of the unknown.

Downy

Salam

Kau tak boleh harap dgn membasuh baju yg kau suka pakai dekat badan, rapat di hati sekali setahun,
baju itu akan makin kuat.
Kau juga harus faham bahawa kerap membasuh akan buat ia pudar.
Jangan lah jadi macam dia,
bila mahu raya,
barulah sebotol sabun dan perfume dituang pada baju.
Kan molek jika kau tuang sabun, picit perfume sedikit tapi berterusan.
Kalau aku baju, aku akan nyaman.
Kalau aku orang, aku akan beri satu..
oh mungkin banyak senyuman.
#rbtl

p/s: dont know how to start. 

Note to self

Salam.

Selalu istighfar dan taubat,
Jauhi maksiat,
Doa dengan kuat.

p/s: jaga hati..jaga diri..

Dongak ke langit.

Salam.

Jarang sekali aku benar-benar mendongak ke langit pagi.
Pemandangan selalu searas mata.
Mata terpejam seketika menahan cahaya mentari.
Ironinya, mata kecil mampu melihat seluas-luas langit Ilahi.
Biru,
Berawan,
dan bawa rasa tenang.
Mahu benar hampar badan di permaidani rumput.
Mahu beralas lengan mengintai ketenangan biru di atas.
Mahu dengar deruan ombak dan bisikan bayu.
Mahu digigit sejuk pagi dan disapa embun.

p/s: Jaga hati. Jaga iman (yang maha nipis itu). Jaga diri.

To-do-list. :)

Salam.

Things i look forward to for these few months before DECEMBER:

*reading books (2 motivational books+ 2 novels)
*marathon HIMYM (depends)
*shopping for skirts and tops
*new gadget /phone
*'spring' cleaning my wardrobe
*island / trips to places.
*self-improvement (personally and spiritually)

And many others..in sya Allah.

p/s: may we always be motivated to improve ourselves and spread loves and kindness to others. Muahh..

smile :)

Salam.

i should be packing.
but i always hate, packing.

p/s: i hope s(he) doesnt mind. i did it coz of HIM. 

qalb

Salam.

Dalam diri ada seketul daging.
Raja tubuh badan.
Raja sanubari.

Ya ALLAH,
bantu aku jaga dan pelihara
bersih dan sucikan ia.
jauhi daku dari penyakit hati
jauhi daku dari sentiasa mengotori

Ya ALLAH,
bantu aku yakin dan tabah
atas segala ketentuan, ujian dan dugaan,
semuanya adalah yang terbaik dari apa yang aku fikir.
bantu aku syukur dan istiqamah beramal.
atas segala nikmat, rahmat dan limpah kasih sayang- MU,
yang tak terhingga banyaknya, tak terhitung bilangnya.

Ya ALLAH,
bantu aku jaga rasa dalam hati
agar segala rasa rindu dan sayang di dalamnya,
adalah kerana- MU.
dan agar segala rasa yang terbina,
adalah di dasari atas niat peroleh redha-MU.

Ya ALLAH,
bantulah aku pelihara hati aku.
walau hanya seketul daging
walau banyak hitamnya
aku mohon Ya ALLAH,
agar raja dalam tubuh ini
dapat sentiasa dalam keadaan mengingati MU,
tenang dan bersih.

p/s: Ya Rabb, help me to gain my focus back coz i feel so distracted these days. 

day 2 Ho Chi Minh

Salam.

*this entry was pre-written wayy before August! lol

hi.
ok, mahu updates hari kedua di HCM.
basically, hari kedua adalah hari ke Delta Mekong ..dan shopping.

journey dari hotel ke Delta Mekong lebih kurang 2 jam.
lalu highway. hehe
and ada satu je tempat berhenti.
cantik ye tempat RnR die. hihi

lunch di restaurant (Masjid):

Honey Tea....

R&R............. :

ok...gambar kucar kacir sket. hehe
but..tips  nya:

1) turun from bus bila dekat RnR odw to Delta Mekong. Snap pics. kat belakang ada tmp cantik. toilet bersih. hihi
2) Delta Mekong - most of the souvenirs adalah murah di sini compared to Ben Thanh market. TAPI kena pandai tawar menawar.

:)

That's all. Byee...hihi

p/s: looking forward for my next trip!! 

sibuk

Salam.

Kadang-kadang..
aku suka keadaan bila terlalu sibuk..
Yang mana aku terpaksa korban tido..
Korban makan..
Korban rehat..
Korban ME time.

Kadang aku suka tahap sibuk sampai ..
kat sekolah, nak pakai baju pun nk yg longgar so mudah nak gerak laju and duduk lasak.
Jalan pun pakai flats
so dapat gerak cepat and langkah tangga dgn pantas.
Badan dah macam pokok krismas bergerak.
Kiri kanan belakang penuh beg muatan lori.

Drive sambil usha nota kat seat sebelah.
Traffic light je..amek nota n baca.
Makan pun menyambil je.

Senyum?
memang jarang lah..
Sembang pun tak sempat..
Bersosial apatah lagi.
Muka serius je.. Mulut muncung.
Bila orang senyum kat ko, barulah sedar yang dari tadi tak senyum.
So happy lah kejap.
Haha.

Sibuk yang mcm ni,
Buat aku sedar yang aku masih hidup dan kuat.
Mampu hadapi.
Mampu siapkan walau terpaksa korban byk perkara.

Sibuk macam ni bukan selalu.
Tapi bermusim.
Bila musim semua benda nak pada tarikh atau minggu lebih kurang.

Sibuk macam ni,
Buat aku rasa lebih ternanti2 Broad Smile Day
dan lebih nak me-reward diri.
Hehe

Sibuk macam ni, aku taklah suka sgt.
Santai itu kan lebih seronok.

Cuma...

Sibuk macam ni,
Buat aku lebih kebal dan kenal,
Kawan yang beri motivasi
dan mereka yang hanya ada bila mahu masa mereka untuk diisi.

Sibuk macam ni,
Buat aku lebih lebih lebih lagi terasa betapa lemahnya aku tanpa DIA.
Buat aku cari dan luang lebih masa untuk sujud lebih lama.
Doa lebih panjang dan duduk lebih bentarnya selepas solat.

Dan moga aku, kita dan kamu
senantiasa jadikan DIA tempat mengadu, bergantung dan berdoa
tak kira masa sibuk mahupun lapang.
susah ataupun senang.

p/s: "what does not kill you makes you stronger" .. :)

husnudzon

Salam.

i am not clear of your intention.
but i put my trust in ALLAH SWT.

p/s: I like subtle. but i appreciate thoughtful honesty. 
it helps me to understand and feel better.  

be grateful

Salam.


Remember,

Other people's challenges and problems are way bigger than yours.
Difficulties faced by Muslims in Gaza,
tragedies of MH17 and MH370.
those surely remind how lucky and blessed you are.
stop (minimize) complaining. be more grateful.
be more husnudzon.
be more pious (habluminallah).

it's Ramadhan. the last phase.
let's make the best of it!

p/s: #notetoself

dear self

Salam.


Jika ingin yang terbaik,
Usaha juga untuk jadi yang terbaik. : )

p/s: Nota untuk diri

Pre Ramadhan.

Salam

Lately, i feel like things hv gone here and there.
I feel like my productivity graph has gone down to the bottom.
I lost the momentum.
i slowed down too much after hours and days of speeding.
It is now gonna be quite hard to change into higher gears.
Blame the driver! Haha.

And oh..
The holy month of ramadhan is approaching.. in less than 3 days.
I like ramadhan. It is a month full of barakah and rahmah.
A month that doas would be mustajab.
A month where i would eat dates more. :p
However, i feel like i am not fully (spiritually) ready for it.
I feel like there are many lackings in myself especially in terms of being a good and pious servant to ALLAH SWT.

Hopefully.. Ramadhan could mould me to be a notch higher, in terms of being a good muslimah.
Teach me to be grateful and improve myself (and being istiqamah on that).

I hope that my energy and positivity level would not go down.
And..
May Allah grant my duas and help me, and all of us achieve good things in life and hereafter.

p/s: i cant wait for the weekend. Tomorrow is sport's day :)

too busy.. too preoccupied..

Salam.

from google

TRUE enough :)

p/s: WORDS without ACTIONS are very much doubtful.

ACTIONS without WORDS are pretty much confusing.

Synchronization is a must. Ambiguity is not.

Mekong River Sampan Tour

Salam.

p/s: im craving for cream puff. but too 'rajin' to make one! huhu

Day 1 : Ho Chi Minh

Salam.

hi.. this is just like a diary for me to remember what actually happened etc.

ok, 3rd june... i went to ho chi minh with my 3 girl friends and beloved colleagues.
im not going to write much i think..ive given wordy tips and tricks in previous entry.
here and next entries, perhaps pictures would explain better..  :)

DAY 1 (3rd June 2014, Tuesday)

-it was my first time travelling for hours (1am-5am) by bus at night.
my first time spending my beauty sleep in a bus. uncomfortable as i couldnt straighten my legs. huhu
but........ i survived. Alhamdulillah. hehe.

-flight was at 9 am by MAS.

KLIA airport

looking fresh kannn.. True,,, fresh from bus and sleep. hehe :p

 always ready for photos

our cheapskate breakfast. gagaga

Arrived at Ho Chi Minh around 1030 am

 we opted for the front seat..sebelah driver yang suka hon and ketawa. ahaha

many motorcycles. Cars were expensive. hence.. motorbikes are the best option! 

btw, i love seeing the motocyclists 'fashion'. Unique!

another amazing thing bout Vietnam. the cabels. i saw their electrician repairing the cabels. 

i felt like giving him an applause! :p

oh, thanx TNB and TELEKOM Malaysia! hehe

Lunch at Nha Do Red House. 

Note: Red House restaurant : Halal (with certificate), food 3 stars, service 4 stars (friendly waiters who can speak Malay), clean and comfy + Wifi! :D

Saigon Cathedral 

                           the cathedral has French influence. Materials were brought from there too.

French was there for missionary purposes.

The Post Office 

was designed by the famous guy who designed Eiffel Tower, Gustave Eiffel 

War Remnants Museum 

Thanh Truong Hotel

Hotel nampak je lokasi tak cantik, sempit and tinggi.

but dalam dia ok. 

service pun ok. 

refer to tips and tricks entry for more details! hehe

my room was small (they offered many types of  rooms..but i got this! huhu).

 but it was ok. i could sleep well. ahaha.  

View from the 3rd floor  

Small toilet but would do for 3 nights. Water hose, checked! hehe

Banana Leaf Halal Restaurant

this was where we met Ust Kazim Elias! hehe.. kat perak tak jumpa pun..

kat Vietnam pula kita ketemu kann..hehe

So the restaurant...  Halal, food 3 stars, service 3 stars, clean but quite stuffy (small place) 

has wifi! :D

Night Market 

-It was very near to the hotel. within walking distance

-start at 6-7 pm until 11 pm plus. 

-price was quite the same as Ben Thanh market.

-RM is accepted. 

-interesting thing: they have this Dewan Bandaraya thing too; who would check for motorbike's sellers/ street sellers yg xd permit berniaga. So.. whenever they came to inspect, a lil bit of 'chaos' would happen. 

few motorcyclists would signal the sellers "wowowowowooo" sth like that. 

and in a blink of eyes, street sellers grabbed their stuff and brought em to the nearest shop/ walkway.

clearrr abes..

then tak sampai 5 minutes, open table balik...hehehe

so just careful masa diorang sibuk bagi signal and kemas barang. takut ada yang ambil kesempatan, 

ragut sesuatu masa orang kelam kabut.  

-BUT...this one is very serious...

 be careful ..really careful of pickpocket, snatch thefts and being cheated!

My friends (2 guys) lost their Note 3 and Smart phone at the night market.

i think they were eyed prior to that incident.

So they were preoccupied with phones on their palms..walking while eyes on the phones.

First victim's smart phone was snatched, he yelled to his friend (he was shocked).

then, his friend pulak yg kene snatched. 

they walked together actually.

and the thefts, MIA.

but...hehe

that incident was somehow made our trip more fun and merry. 

with no phones, they talked and communicated more especially in the bus!

(victims were jokers and hilarious guys!)

hence, more jokes and laughter! hehe.

still, be careful of your belongings k! :D 

tips: always attach your phone or camera strings to your hand.

do not take out phones or cameras unless you want to use em. keep em safe.

Keep your wallet, purse or handbag safe too. for handbags, hold em strong, ladies! hehe

p/s: next entry would be our next trip to Delta Mekong and Shopping! :)