wordless wednesday

Salam.

p/s: open burning. choking!

as simple as making a cuppa tea

Salam.

Self Reminder: "Kemudian apabila engkau telah selesai (daripada sesuatu amal soleh), maka bersungguh-sungguhlah engkau berusaha (mengerjakan amal soleh yang lain)"  (Ash-syarh 94:7)

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Few Updates:

I watched final EURO Spain vs Italy last night (morning?).
It was the only match that i fully watched (without being sleepy n without my family+ friends around).
and congratz Spain! seriously, they controlled the whole game.
4-0, man! that's a new record for EURO.

and in the staffroom just now,
we all heard loud snores from the male teachers' side.
yeah, talking bout EURO...

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and i expected this.
people gave a few comments bout me, painting henna on my nails.
that kinda looks from my students, especially.
who were really curious and asked me with serious tone,
whether my weekend was more than just a weekend.
kids.

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When people tell you something,
you dont swallow everything that they say,
you filter them..
like tea..
it is just that, if you take everything,
if you trust every single word, 
it would be too much and might be frustrating.
sometimes people just don't mean everything that they say.
both in positive and negative ways.
remember,
too much sugar, or too much water gonna make tea no better.

p/s: Tonight, we gonna run a spot check. I would at least, want to hunt 2 handphones.

without supervision

Salam.

"love the jubah and henna tubes.."

*****

too sleepy and kinda tired while driving just now.
ive tried almost all positions possible in the car just to avoid myself from being more sleepy.
from stretching to sitting up straight,
to putting my chin on the steering wheel (at traffic light) to singing out loud like a diva,
and to opening the windows and feeling the breeze (smoke) touching my skin.
still, sleepy.

stopped and drank nescafe.

continued driving.
~__~

ahh... called my friend and talked.

-problem solved-


p/s: when u let someone be too 'independent', u'd be surprised to wat u could be losing.

twister

Salam.

"Syukur, it's Thursday already :)"

few unimportant updates :

sekolah:
-ada sorang kakak kat skolah aku neh. first time aku tengok die, ingat bujang lagi.
rupanya dah kawin dua anak. tpi seriously die cantik, cute and bubbly.
suka tengok dia senyum, manis sekali.
and semalam, die peluk aku..
tapi, bukanlah peluk yang psiko..
just masa bersembang dengan die, ada part lawak sampai dia peluk aku.
tiada apa2 yang luar biasa, cuma sedikit terkejut jela..

potluck:
potluck semalam antara potluck ter meriah di sekolah aku lah.
mana tak meriah, dah hampir setiap orang cg perempuan bawak something.
aku bawak perut kosong, dan sebekas besar triffle. 
walau rupa triffle aku tak lah secantik tuannya, eh..?hehe..
tapi rasanya sedap (lah kot..lol)

cg baru:
-before this, aku memang rapat ngan sorang akak ni.
but die dah transfer ke skolah baru selepas berkahwin.
So meja sebelah aku kosong.
and datanglah sorang cikgu baru..
sebaya aku. and mujurlah jenis dia tak banyak cakap sangat,
and tak pendiam sangat..hehe.
so senanglah aku nak bertepuk tampar dengan jiran kiri kanan..lol

EURO:
- aku suka jugak tengok bola. especially kalau tengok ramai2.
but then, waktu EURO sangatlah se pertiga malam gitu kann..
so aku just dapatkan updates from member je..
and kalau game yang aku minat, barulah aku intai..
intai jela, tak tengok abes pun. lol.

p/s: TGIF tomorrow :)

4sib

Salam.

*Im glad that a few things bout school were done today*

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lately, i kinda lost my appetite.
i ate very little and would be full after 2 or 3 spoons.
or even when i was cooking.
like this one time, i was making myself spaghetti and i was fulled when i was preparing the sauce. huhu. 
people said i should eat more. the portion and the frequency.
sometimes i have to force eating.
but dont get me wrong, i appreciate food... it is just that,
i dont have so much 'desire' to eat lately.
[but duhh.. im still 4# kgs. it didnt drop, man!]

Living life makes us treasure many things,
makes us look up to many people.
I kinda admire cool (but not ignorant) people.
We got a few teachers here, especially the male teachers who are cool,
but sadly to say, few who sometimes are ignorant.
I also love seeing how everyone has their own niche.
Like Mr. S who is dang good in organising sport's events.
or Pn. H who is exceptionally good in initiating fund raising (aka ceti) and buying presents,
Mr H who's the expert in making jokes and handling events,
Pn M who is very loud and yes, even the male teachers are afraid to mess around with her.
and of course, our discipline teacher, Mr Y who i would say, coolawsome..
yes, cool and awesome in handling notorious students with papers, voice, hands and scissors.
and oh yes!! Miss S who is good in everything. lol


man, i couldnt really come out with even one convincing niche of mine!

but! im not that terrible at this (syok sendiri); 

so as my sibs cynically say lah uols...

p/s: the beginning of sore throat.

mosquito

Salam.

"and this is just another challenge".

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So far, it only happened once, until today.
For the second time, I experienced such furious to the point that
my breathing became faster, my hands trembled, my voice turned shaky
and worse, I nearly cried.

So I stopped everything.
I recited few lines of Lord's words,
I stopped talking, I sat and I tried again and again not to cry.
Not there, at least.

and I could say that Alhamdulillah,
I did a pretty good job at handling my own emotion.
No skin contact, no abusive words, not a single drop of tear.

But I wish this kinda thing wont happen again.
I just love my self, my health so much,
that i couldnt afford to have my heart beats faster unnecessarily.

p/s: People should know that what's done cannot be easily undone.

relieve?

Salam.

 "im glad that we girls could actually get along together"

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im kinda angry right now.
but not totally angry.
half-angry.
and i dont know what's the other half is...

p/s: it's Saturday tomorrow... a week has passed just like that.

umbrella

Salam.


Last Sunday,

I was driving from ipoh at 615 am, heading to Tg Malim for a test that's gonna start at 9am.
I could be reaching there by 745am. it was still early but i didnt wanna take a risk of speeding at 140-160km/h to be on time (like last Friday. It was totally unexpected. a lorry was upside down and caused traffic jam. i hope the driver was ok).

So yes, driving early morning, on highway, turning on hitz.fm and it played "Umbrella".

I felt like i was heading to Kajang.
Sooooo, School-Based Experience moment!

Same situation, same time, same song,
just a slight difference in year, with incomplete passengers.

this aint the SBE i was talking bout. i just didnt have the Kajang SBE pics here. 

it must be somewhere..

p/s: swimming memang sunbathing secara tak sengaja.

mermaid

Salam.

"Im grateful that I had done marking one class. :D - another two classes"

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What i did yesterday to burn the calories..

but needless to say, 

i dont like swimming with other SEA or Olympics swimmers.

If I could swim like a mermaid (motiff mermaid, bukan fish??),

it wont be that embarrassing.

>__<

p/s: i should finish marking another class today. I'll try!

teacher busy..

Salam.

"aku bersyukur kerana setiap hari, Allah bagi aku sebab untuk senyum"

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kalau kau nak buat cerita sedih,
jangan lupa letak scene budak miskin yang lapar..
gunakan duit yang dia ada untuk beli nasi lemak..
sedang pegang nasi lemak, tiba-tiba dilanggar orang..
maka, punah harapan untuk makan nasi lemak...

atau,
scene sedang menunggu seseorang dari panas hingga hujan..
dan walau hujan, masih menunggu..

ok fine..
memang aku rasa kesian kat student aku..(and rasa bersalah).
semalam aku suruh dia tunggu aku pukul 2pm kat kereta aku sebab aku nak bagi dia kain minta mak dia jahitkan...
and....yes!!
aku terlupa ok.
so tadi aku masuk kelas dia...
dia tanya dengan nada sedih, "teacher...teacher pergi mana semalam?..."
tak sempat aku jawab, dia sambung,
"saya tunggu teacher, dalam hujan..."..

ok ok fine!!
ambil tisu lap air mata sendiri,
keluarkan lolipop dari handbag kasi kat dia.
T__T

ok, tipu.
aku tak nanges, aku tak kasi dia lolipop.
tapi seriously aku rasa bersalah.

and ko boleh bayangkan tak..
kalau ko wat promise kat anak ko,
and then sebab busy kerja or balik lambat,
ko terlupa promise tu.
pastu balik kerja, ko tengok die tertidur dengan pipi basah dekat sofa ruang tamu..

ok, i should stop.
banyak sangat tengok drama.
k bye.

p/s: You should listen to Harapan and Ku Tiba by Hyper Act.. :)

gotta know

Salam.

" i am grateful that i have a friend who is willing to help me here (and whom im not shy to ask a favour from)".

*****

It is good to know a few pleasant things that have been kept from you.
It is like a surprise from the past.
A nice surprise, one that could bring you smile.

Otherwise, ignorance is bliss.

p/s: half

sadis

Salam.

*I am grateful that i could get back home early today*

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I woke up yesterday coz of a weird dream.
in that dream, i was ..... (too weird to share)
hence, my supposedly beauty sleep had turned out to be Beauty's nightmare (hehe).

Nothing funinteresting at school.
I was rushing as usual when it came to the end of the school hours.
Of course i need to rush.
if I did not, I would have to drive for more than 140km/hour consistently..
and coz of rushiting (purposely spelt as it is), I forgot to bring my record book to the office.
Thus, I made a trip back to the staffroom. mind you, our staffroom and office is like Perlis and Sabah.
*Catwalk macam model tak tahan ke bilik air..-_-

 from google image

and my journey to TM (Tg Malim) was so melancholy.
I felt sad, oh my, i did cry while driving (but not weeping kinda cry lah)
i felt unhappy and i actually felt like i dont wanna drive!!!
i wanted to stop and then wishing that i would be at TM somehow.
mengada weh.
I blame it 1/4 to myself but the rest is Mr Moo DeSwing and Mrs Hormes' fault.
it is good to be a girl where you could put the blame on the body, not on the person :p
it is just that, i wish i could hug my besties at that moment. that would be a big relieve (yes, hug could do wonders)

 from google image

everything bout the classes was normal.
I was sleepy and my attention span was decreasing at the 2nd hour,
hence i played with my phone, twitting and eating (managed to smuggle and eat a packet of bun and crackers)

 from google image

and I was very sleepy during the night class despite the presence of a beautiful lecturer.
my eyes were like red, watery and forced to focus while i felt my head and shoulders started to lean on the table. 
man!!! it was just 930pm.
now im the makcik makcik yang tido awal, bangun awal, -__-

 from google image

That night, i couldnt really sleep though i was tired and yawning like there's no tomorrow.

 

  from google image

p/s: aku dapat merasakan yang badan aku semakin gemuk. perut dah macam jangkit member aku yang preggy. muka pulak macam Cg H yang ada double chin, pipi tembam tu. ok nanges T__T

I dont know how far...

Salam.

"I am grateful that mom, dad and bro were here last night :) "

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My weekend (T__T) 

 before

after

T___T 1: I left my car at the hostel for the weekend (3 nights, 2 days) coz I carpooled with my friend to Tg Malim. and when i arrived at the hostel on Sunday night to take my car, I realized that my tyre's Proton logo was missing; the driver side. There were security guards, the car was in the school compound. But yes, crime happened, though not that serious. 

But man! now my car seemed like a girl wearing only one shoe, instead of two.

T___T 2: I am gonna have English panel meeting on Teachers' Day.

Meaning, i wont be able to participate in the sukaneka, etc.. T__T.

this is the only time that i could let loose, to run or cheer or yell to/with my colleagues without us looking weird....*sigh* (hey hey! ikhlas sket boleh?!)

BUT, things happen for reasons. So I should be grateful for many other happy things! :)

My weekend (^__^)   

 (^__^) 1 : yeah, this was after 6 hours of classes. and they had this Hari Belia Perak there.

                 so as the 'berwawasan' belia, I went there under the hot sun (hence my eyes) and support the program; by snapping pics (my own favourite way of showing my support..:p)

 

  (^__^) 2: Our very first elevator self-shot 

(beloved mommy was blocked and eldest bro wasnt there though).

and i was trying my best to fit everyone in the frame..*effort should be praised..*

 

 

(^__^) 3:  You know how i love babies. I mean, friendly babies like the one in the pic. 

Some babies just hate me. You know, they just love your phone, or necklace or handbag..

and when they are bored, I pulak nampak jahat wat die menangis.

But...this babygal just loves me! :D

  

 (^__^) 4: and my cousin's engagement day. Congratz D. You look gorgeous! 

  and the bottom pic, are my female relatives. except one and there's another one 

(not in the pic. eating i guess..hehe)

and what i like the most, 

My family spent their night with me at SP.. 

though it was just a short sleepover, but at least, 

i had a full house yesterday :)

 

p/s: tomorrow is teacher's day. and i am kinda excited bout it, though some teachers just perceive it as just another usual day. Really, would i be like that after years of teaching? huhu
pps:  it would be very surprising if Salim (not a real name) wishes me a happy Teachers' Day.

dare to open your mouth.

Salam.

                                I am grateful that I had my beauty sleep last night and this afternoon..:D

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I nagged to my f5 students for 5 mins.
the thing with nagging is, i like to use hyperbole.
So my f5 students, the boys are more noisy than the girls.
I have told them many times to keep quiet for a while.
yes, they listened, for LESS than a while.

so i told them,
"awak nih, bercakap banyak sangat, dengar nya tidak..
suka sangat bukak mulut..telinga awak ada dalam mulut ke?"



*bunyi unggas*

ok, another thing bout me using hyperbole when nagging is,
I tend to imagine the thing.

so yes, i did imagine that my students have an ear in their mouths...

i nearly laughed imagining that.

man, i really need to tone down my hyperbole.

p/s: i need to shop few things lah. Teluk intan, jom?! :)

mini BSD

Salam.

I am grateful that i have submitted 2 assignments last two days. 

Now, keep on praying that they are both be rewarded As :) .

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it was fun (yeah, that eyes rolling kinda fun) doing assignments at eleventh hour.
i stayed up more that i slept,
i ate more than usual, at odd times,
i made my house and car messy-er,
i got myself a package of two 5kilos dark eye bags,
and exercise for my heart.
it beat faster than usual, due to coffenic (coffee+panic).

I had ALL that before these assignments, years before.
yet still, setting the due date at 11th hour. >_< (shame on you!)

but enough bout that.
now it's my mini BSD.

apparently, after the classes ended,
we had an unplanned night trip to ipoh.
my friends' car (ok, the Mommies) broke down.
Luckily my friend and i were still there.
So we headed to Ipoh in one car, my car.
Glad to be able to help them.
kinda a coincident when last 2weeks, I did owe them one actually.

and coz it is my mini BSD today,
so i really got to celebrate it.
a simple reward.
watched a movie, eating cakes, bowling, shopping (at watson)...
and now, apparently i got enough stock of facial cleanser, ..for like 5 months kot.
and i told that to my friend, whom replied, "tapi tak lawa-lawa pun"..
ok, fine! lol

btw, DianaD* was at Aeon Ipoh to promote N*White products.
so I told my friend that Diana is like duhh...naturally white (fair) and smooth skin kottt...
they should take me as the ACTUAL user, to see the effectiveness ok.
hence the reply, "tak laku product" ..
hellowww... aku and Diana tuh macam kembar ok.

    diana lah sangatt ko kann...


p/s: tengok Battleship pun touching (fine..org dah tengok lama, baru aku nak tengok..always like that!hihi)

super hardworking sara

Salam.

"I am grateful seeing myself still at home today :)"

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I have two assignments to be submitted this Friday.
None that I have started yet.
and it is Monday already. 3 days to finish both.
and both needs thorough readings ; that would consume time.
and I hope I could find time between classes, between whatever to finish em.
and with that, I shall announce that my mini BSD would be on FRIDAY itself;
4th APRIL 2012, well, after 11pm.

and that weekend, if i am not on duty at the hostel,
I would want to shop or watch movie..
kinda like a reward :p

and yes, i need your prayers and your supports, 
so that I could be super hardworking (i dont mind to be a nerd for these few days),
super genius and superb in managing time :)
love you all ! :)

p/s: I started to eat more than usual, at random time too. and that freaks my body weighing scale out. huhu  

mood swing swiiingg

Salam.

"I am grateful that the meeting went ok, Alhamdulillah"

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Tak tahulah nak dikatakan sebagai kelebihan or kekurangan..
manusia mempunyai mood yang tidak stabil.
sometimes happy, sometimes bad mood, sometimes moody, sometimes unexpected kann..
memang menambahkan warna-warni kehidupan.

a) Pagi tadi aku mengamuk kat kelas 3C.
masuk2 kelas bersepah, kerusi kelas tunggang langgang, students bercakap tak henti2,
and then sorang budak nih yang masuk lambat tadi, then sesuka hati keluar ikut pintu belakang.
memang aku panas. lepas kena jerit barulah senyap dan menulis sepanjang waktu tadi.
aku harap tak perlulah hari2 macam nih.
aku sayang diri aku, taknak darah tinggi.

b) aku terlupa nak bawa sijil choral speaking untuk disampaikan kepada students waktu perhimpunan koko tadi. So terpaksalah tunggu sebulan lagi, sampai basi barulah boleh bagi sijil kat students.. *sigh

c) mood orang memang tak boleh predict.
dan orang macam aku neh, memang treat orang lain ikut cara aku dilayan.
kalau kau layan ok, aku pun ok.
kalau kau marah-marah, aku cuba sabar..
tapi kalau kau masih tak faham bahasa, aku pun sama naik angin.

kalau kau melawak,
cakap elok2,
tanya and offer makanan untuk dibawa pulang...
small actions like that pun boleh buat orang sejuk hati kann...

and please,
tolonglah beri sokongan dan bukannya kata-kata yang buat orang sakit hati atau sedih.

d) Lastly, aku sayang semua orang.
dah.

ko tak reti berenang tapi overr

p/s: sekarang semakin tiada motif untuk bergembira bergambar. 

oil

Salam.

 "I am grateful that so far things about Choral Speaking went ok"

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I cant deny that i always have this first impression towards people.

and sometimes, without any reason, I could just like or do not like the person coz of my first impression.

Like how i used to dislike this one fella without any good reason.

I just felt like loosening my shoes and threw 'em at him.

yes, that kind of impression.

but of course i didn't do that.

and it is just hard for me to change my perceptions.

harder when my first impression is usually untrue.

*****

Title always comes with responsibilities.

Like when you are an ustaz, people expect you to behave piously,

Like when you are a Dato', people expect you to contribute more,

and like when you are a hot gorgeous Miss, people expect you to be athletic, robotic, have nothing to do and free from responsibilities.

Hence, all the 'dirty', weekend jobs are all yours.

Yeayyyy!!! [ya righttt]

Waahhh, it is good to live in a comfort zone then.

Just get married, have children asap.

 so I have children theseeeee many! can i avoid my school responsibility now?

p/s: dont get me wrong. everyone has his/her own responsibilities. so it is not our right to judge how small or big one's burden is and use it as an excuse. if everyone does his/her own job, then everything is settled. yes, apa yang penting?? kerjaaaa sama!    

of a night

Salam.

I am grateful that even for just one night, i felt like a girl with lots of protective sisters :)

(ahh...sometimes it does feel good being among the youngest :p )

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http://rockinmama.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/breathe.jpg

I just could not wait for Saturday this week.

even i haven't completed my assignments, 

i could just ignore that coz i am eager to go out from school and back home.

there are some faces places and parts of the school that bring me gloom,

(not that i dont like my school. i like it. but of course, sometimes, stress builds up, etc)

so i need new air. like literally.

Friday

1) Evening Class

 http://ididafunny.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/11/smile.jpg

it was just u know, both fun and weird, 

seeing how our strict and serious prof suddenly smiled a lot, 

laughed more and granted our assignment extension. (Alhamdulillah)

and i wonder, is that how my students felt too? :p

2) Night Class

from google image

Now we could see our Dr's teeth.

yes, she let her self loose lil bit more tonight.

She is strict too. in terms of everything.
(and that's actually a compliment. it requires lots of self disciplined to be strict u know!)

an Oxford graduate, man.

but i like her style. it is original.

3) about course mates

http://www.entertainmentwallpaper.com/images/desktops/movie/tv_glee05.jpg

you know, how as teachers, 

you could spot the jokers, the sweethearts, the troublemakers, etc in your class - right on!

and as students too, 

we could not help but have those first impression right.

so we kinda label people ; 

the popular group  (the cheerleaders)

funny   (the jokers)

nerds   (the geeks)

blur   (the ha, whhaatt??)

followers   (the yes, ok)

and so on.

 you know, it is like Glee in real life!

and truthfully,

few others and I kinda have this non pleasant perception towards this loud group.

whom you know, when they come, 

the room would be loud. haha.

but...

they are actually ones whom really good at persuading.

for extension, replacement classes and so on. 

so i like them once for that. 

and...

i like them more,

when they actually show their protectiveness and concern.

like seriously, wow, they are THAT caring towards myself.

(ok, the fact that i had to drive alone at 11pm from tg malim to ipoh really brings out people's concern though i didnt mind actually)

so yes, they wanted and actually forced someone to accompany me to ipoh.

and i went back to ipoh with a company. lol.

and now, i have new perceptions on some people.

the loud group now would be the loudring (loud+caring) mommies group :D

p/s: what my friend told me last night: "if you miss someone, that someone actually misses you too."
that was a doubtful and emotion-bias statement actually. lol

urat kentutz

Salam.

i am grateful that today is a holiday :) 

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smilE
i admit that i dont smile a lot.
people sometimes think twice to approach me as i have this arrogant snobbish face.
but i do smile ok.
just that, i dont feel like smiling alll the time.

though i dont smile a lot, and my serious face scares people most of the time,
...i found it difficult for myself to hold my laugh.
like seriously, if it is funny,
how could you not laughing right?
plus, it is contagious! one laughter would lead to another.
once a person initiate it, it will spread!
but then, you need to consider the place and situation too right.
like,
how could you laugh when you are performing on the stage,
how could you still laugh when someone is nagging,
how could you laugh when you are in the surau?
how could you laugh when everyone is so serious doing the Pilates?

yes, and when the situations do not permit me to laugh out loud,
i have to cover my laughter with coughs.
and i remembered my student once told me that if you hold your laugh, your 'urat kentut' will break.
like wtheck..lol

Babe
and of course,
i would want to take this opportunity to wish my sister,
a very warm happy BIRTHDAY sayang!
we havent met for like... almost 3 months?
and our last meeting with the other sisters was sooo short!
we didnt even have a single drop of coffee together right!
and so you would know and for the record,
I love you, sista! muchas!
hope you are blessed with happiness; to yourself and your family.
xoxo, dearie HanisahT <3 (would be awesome to literally hug u dear)

p/s: should i go out to T.I or nay? nothing much there though.